Remorse [iKON Series #1 - Bobby] COMPLETED

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SEOLHYUN

Time flies to fast. I can feel christmas is approaching already! Ang lamig na dito sa Korea. Ang dami kong nakikitang couples dito. Nabibitter ba ko? No. Kase I got Hanbin but gaya ng nakagawian ko, he's only present kapag may date kami at kapag ihahatid nya ko sa bahay, partida minsan lang sa isang week nya ko maihatid.

"S-seolhyun?" Napatingin ako sa tumawag sakin. Its Jiwon.

"Oh bakit?" I answered him just like before. Cold.

"Mag-isa ka lang ba?" Hindi ba halata?
Imbis na sagutin ko sya pabalang, I just nodded at him.

Hindi na sya nagsalita ulit at umupo sya dun sa bench sa kabilang dulo ng inuupuan ko.

"Malapit na magpasko. Pero diba hate mo ang snow? Kase sabi mo kapag malamig ang panahon pati yung tao sa paligid mo pakiramdam mo cold din sayo." He chuckled. I gave him a confused stare. And same, he chuckled again.

"Saan mo naman napulot yan?" Sagot ko.

"Hmm..nakalimutan mo na." Sabi nya habang tumatango.

Seriously wala akong ma-gets sa sinasabi ni Jiwon. Hindi na ako nagsalita pa then I saw him stood up.

"I still owe you a one whole day. Just one whole day Seolhyun." He's smiling habang nakatingin sya ng diretso sa mata ko.

Why does it seems like I already saw that pair of eyes before? Is it just me or...guni-guni ko lang yun?

Later on, umalis bigla si Jiwon after nya sabihin sakin yun. Curious parin ako sa mga sinabi nya. I'm wondering what was that all about?

Baka nagpapapansin lang yun kaya kung ano-ano pa ang sinasabi nya sakin. Siguro nga. I know Jiwon, when he wants my attention magsasabi sya about something na hindi ko magets tapos voila! Makikita ko nalang sya nakangiti.

I gasped when I felt a vibration from my pocket. Someone's calling! And its Hanbin.

Dali-dali kong sinagot ang tawag nya. Its like a year since he havent called me. Super nakakatampo na.

"Hello babe?" I greeted first.

"San ka?" He sounds so bored. Why?

"Uhm nasa may Han river ako. Ikaw ba? Do you want me to go there?"

"Yes please. I missed you." And because of that, I didn't hesitate to go where he probably at. Nasa unit nya lang sya ngayon cuz its Saturday!

Madali akong nakapunta sa unit nya. I'm running as fast as I could dahil sobrang excited na kong makita sya. Sobrang miss ko na si Hanbin.

Hindi naman siguro magagalit si Hanbin sa suot ko? Nakastripe fitted dress kasi ako. Comfortable ako sa ganitong damit, that's why. Its here where I can show my S-line. And...gusto ko din nasakin lang mata ni Hanbin kaya I wear these kind of clothes.

"I missed you babe!" I said while I'm clinging on him like a koala. Nakasabit ang kamay ko sa leeg nya then my legs around his waist. He's walking towards the couch.

"I missed you too." I thought ilalagay nya ko sa couch para maupo but I was wrong. Sa lap nya ako pinaupo. Syempre nakadress ako kaya upong feminine gal ang gawa ko kahit na nasa lap ako ni Hanbin.

My arms are still wrapped around his neck. Nakatitig lang ako sa kanya. Ngayon ko lang narealize na ang laki pala..lalo na pag abot kamay mo na sya.

Ang laki ng ilong ni Hanbin.

"I know what you're thinking. Stop staring at my nose." Masungit nyang sabi. Natawa naman ako dun.

"How did you know yung ilong mo pinag-iinteresan ko?" I lifted a brow.

"Its my asset, and its one of those big thing in me so yeah.." Proud nyang sagot sakin. Ilong nya lang malaki sa kanya no! Although I haven't seen it yet.

"Oo na." I bit his nosetip lightly and pecked his lips. "I love you Hanbin.."

"I love you too." And with that, he claimed my lips. A passionate deep one.

I so missed him, his kisses and his touch.

We continue kissing, I can feel his hands are roaming around my body. He even squeezed it! Gosh.

My eyeswidened when I felt something strange. Geez! Hindi ko namalayan natanggal na pala ni Hanbin yung lock ng bra ko.

Hindi pwede 'to! No. It cant be.
Bumitaw ako kay Hanbin. I straddle off him then binalik ko yung lock sa bra ko. Nagulat sya sa ginawa ko.

"Why babe?" He asked.

"I cant do this Hanbin." I saw him nod.

"Its okay babe. I'm sorry kung di na ako nakapagpigil. You're just too hot to handle." Nginitian ko lang sya.

Why do I got this feeling? Na..feeling ko mali yung mga ginagawa ko with Hanbin? Parang may hadlang eh. Hindi ko alam bakit ganun pero yun ang nararamdaman ko everytime na we'll do intimate things.

"Hanbin..I almost forgot may ipapaalam pala ako sayo." I need to tell him about sa hiningi sakin ni Jiwon.

"What is it?"

"Nung isang araw diba I confronted Jiwon? Ano kase..." I bit my lowerlip. "He asked me to be with him for a day."
I'm just staring at him para tignan ang reaction nya if magagalit sya or hindi.

"Is that so? I'm cool with it but make sure he wont do stupid things with you." Bakit hindi sya nagalit man lang? Bigla nya nalang ako pinayagan? Why?

Akala ko posessive boyfriend si Hanbin pero bakit hinayaan nya akong ilapit kay Jiwon knowing na alam nyang may gusto yun sakin? Hindi kaya...kinulit din sya ni Jiwon para huwag akong pigilan at hayaan akong sumama for one day?

I don't know if what should I feel, happy or pissed. Happy because hindi sya nagilit or pissed because hinayaan nya lang ako at para syang walang pakialam sakin.

"Babe.. I know what you're thinking again. Ayoko lang ng may misunderstanding tayo kaya nagiging maluwag ako sayo and I'm letting you go wherever you want. Ayokong masakal kita that's why even if I don't like seeing you with other people, that doesn't mean wala akong pakialam sayo. That only means I don't want to choke you. Its not healthy you know."

I was just staring at him habang nag-eexplain sya. Now I know his reason. Kasi sometimes hindi talaga gawain ni Hanbin ang magbigay ng reason everytime na may gagawin sya kaya ang labas ko, nganga.

"Thank you Hanbin. Hindi ako nagkamali na sagutin kita." I said and I hug him.

Bakit ang weird ko these days? Simula nung sinagot ko talaga si Hanbin ang daming bumabagabag sa isip ko. Nandito si Tokki, kung bakit hindi posessive si Hanbin, kung bakit minsan lang nya ko itext or tawagan, kung bakit feeling ko masaya ako kase hinayaan nya ko sa gagawin ko.

Ganun nalang ba talaga ang tama ko kay Hanbin?