Remorse [iKON Series #1 - Bobby] COMPLETED

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SEOLHYUN

Sobra akong kinakabahan habang binubuksan ko tong envelope na may pangalan ko. I know who's handwriting is this! Kilalang-kilala ko sya.

Dear Angel,
Hi~ I bet right now you're already reading this letter. I just really hope napadala agad nila sayo to. Do you still remember when I defend you from our evil classmates? That was the first time I fell for you. Doon ko narealize na angels do exist. Do you still remember when we were young, we promised each other na kapag nasa right age na tayo doon na kita liligawan at sasagutin mo ko? Do you still remember that? I hope you do. I think I already granted that promise with you and I'm happy that I was able to love you without any regrets, ayun nga lang I wasn't able to hear your sweetest yes. But masaya na ako sa three years na nakasama kita. I can call myself the luckiest because after 6 years nahanap parin kita. I'm thankful that kahit na ilang beses mo na ko binasted you didn't find a way to be away from me. I know that in your heart, may soft part parin ako although I just don't really know if kilala mo pa nga ako. Angel I want to thank you for the love you had for me when we were young, wether its a fake or true love. I felt it. Ikaw yung dahilan kung bakit nakaabot ako hanggang ngayon. You're really the reason why starting that graduation day until now, I'm still breathing. Angel I hope in our next life, you'll fall for me already and embrace me so tight like you never wanna let me go. Thank you Angel for making me the happiest guy in the world. I will take this memory in the next life with me and I'll tell God how much I'm inlove with you so the next time we'll meet again, not just us will meet but also our hearts. I will miss you angel. I love you so much. By the way, my name is Kim Jiwon."

Fuck. Sobrang nanghihina ako. Sa pagtawag nya palang ng "angel" sakin hinang-hina na ako. Hindi ko alam kung anong dapat kong maramdaman ngayon. Matutuwa ba ako dahil sa wakas nakita ko ulit si Tokki o maiinis ako sa sarili ko dahil all this time si Jiwon pala yung batang nagtanggol sakin noon, yung naging kaibigan ko, yung first love ko..

Tinignan ko lahat ng nasa box. Mga regalo yung laman. Yung iba, gamit ko na hiningi ni Jiwon sakin nung bata pa kami. Sa paghahagilap ko sa laman ng box na to nakita ko yung favorite book ko. Yung kinuha ni Jiwon dahil ayaw na ayaw nyang basahin ko to. Ito yung book kung saan namatay yung guy sa bandang huli.

Bakit sinoli nya sakin yung mga binigay ko sa kanya? Ayaw nya na ba sakin? Sumuko na ba talaga sya?

Hindi!

Kailangan kong makita si Jiwon ngayon. Gusto kong sabihin sa kanya na sya parin yung laman ng puso ko. Hinding-hindi magbabago.

Kailangan kong bumawi sa lahat ng ginawa ko sa kanya noon, simula nung niligawan nya ako.

Kailangan ko syang makita ngayon, gustong gusto ko syang yakapin at sabihing pumapayag na akong maging girlfriend nya.

Nagmadali akong nagpalit ng damit ko, I went downstairs and I saw mama sitted on the couch.

"Anak saan ka pupunta?"

"Kila Jiwon po mama."

"Anak wala na si Jiwon sa bahay nila.."

U-umalis na sya? Nagpunta na naman ba sya sa ibang bansa dahil akala nya wala na syang pag-asa sakin?

"Kung ganun, sa airport po ako pupunta. Sigurado pong nandun pa sila..hindi pa naman po sila nakakaalis siguro dahil maaga pa mama." Sabi ko habang nagsusuot ng sapatos.