Complications

Part 12

Niall’s POV

It was such a long day. Jenny who cheated on me with that jerk Daniel, the uncomfortable talk with Megan and if it hadn’t been enough, the date.

It has been 3 years since I lost my dad. I still miss him so much and one day I will find the men who did this. I just don’t know how to get through this day. It is hard enough with dealing with the loss of my father but the universe had to torture me more.

What did I do to deserve this? I keep wondering this. Back at home I had a fight with my mother. We usually never fight but I got angry today and I guess I took it out on her. After our argument I went to my room but I couldn’t get peace.

I wanted to trash something, to get my anger out. But I knew better. That’s not a good way, my father taught me that. I glance over at my clock. 9pm. I pick my jacket and head downstairs.

Before I go, I have to apologize to my mom. ‘I’m sorry mom. I had a rough day and considering the date.. Still I know it’s no excuse for yelling at you but I’m sorry. I will tell you about later.’ I say as I give her a hug, holding her tight. ‘It’s okay, son. I miss him too. I love you.’ We both had some tears in our eyes but we just smiled away the pain.

I arrived at the park. Where it all happened. For the past 3 years I have been coming here. Thinking, sitting and talking to him. I feel closer at this place. Maybe because it happened here, I don’t know.

I just need to be here now. I find peace here and I can feel my father around me. I can’t help but cry. I miss him so much. ‘They said that the pain would go away. They lied. I still miss you so much and it hurts. Every single day more and more. I promise I’ll make you proud. I love you dad.’ I whisper.

When I hear my name being called, I turn around and see her. Standing behind me in tears. She manages to calm me down and she actually held me in her arms. I asked for her to hug me again, which she did.

I was so thankful for that. I wanted to held her in my arms for so long now. I just imagined it to be in a happier place. I didn’t tell her why I was here nor did she ask, she only let me know that she would be there if I wanted to tell. I loved how she took my hand and quickly released it again.

I took her hand again and smiled. I loved this shy side of her. I walked her home and stopped at her front door. I was thinking about kissing her but I better not. As much as I want those beautiful soft lips on mine, I can’t. I’m to heartbroken and the possibility of being rejected now would be too much for me.

I hold her hand as long as I can but after a while we’re too far apart. Her smile makes me feel better. Even though this was a painful day, she made it better. I would have never expected her to show up in the park but I’m glad she did.

I hope I can get closer to her. But my mind isn’t up for it now. Neither is my heart which is shattered in pieces. Even though it wasn’t working anymore between me and Jenny, it still hurt.

But this is just a new chapter in my life. A new chapter titled ‘Megan’.