Complications

Part 42

I wake up in Niall’s arms. I really like waking up with him. He’s still asleep though but the fact that he’s here makes me smile. He seems so peaceful. I can’t understand how he is so calm considering everything that’s going on in his life. I still feel guilty. Daniel wanted to protect me and that’s why he did what he did. But to be honest, I feel even more guilty for kissing him last night. Not because I didn’t want to but because I can’t be with him. His life would be ruined, Daniel would ruin it or let others ruin it, I don’t know. I’ll probably break his heart and that’s why I feel so guilty.

Suddenly I’m pulled back by Niall. ‘Good morning beautiful’ he says before kissing my cheek. I just smile and hug him. ‘Everything okay?’ he asks me. No, I’m in love with you but I can’t be with you for your own good. ‘Yes, just tired.’ I reply. ‘Liar.’ he replies with that adorable smile of his. Maybe it’s time to talk about this, I owe him that. At least he’ll know where he stands.

‘Actually, no I’m not okay.’ I begin. ‘Okay then. I’ll make us some breakfast and then you can tell me.’ he offers and I nod. After an half an hour we’re both enjoying a wonderful breakfast. It’s just something simple but it’s so wonderful because I’m eating it together with Niall. We talked about other stuff first just so we could enjoy everything.

‘So, what’s wrong?’ he finally asked when we finished cleaning up. I take a deep breath and let out a sigh. ‘Remember that night you told me you loved me?’ I begin and he nods. ‘Well I never replied. I was in denial back then but the truth is, I love you, so much Niall.’ He looks surprised but I can see in his eyes that he had been waiting for me to say these words. ‘Then what’s the problem?’ he asks me confused. ‘That is the problem..’ Damn, hurt in his eyes. That’s not how I meant it. ‘No, wait, don’t take it the wrong way.’ ‘How am I supposed to take it?’ he asks me, still his calm self.

‘It’s a problem because I can’t be with you Niall. You would only get in trouble because of me and you already are.. I have caused you enough hurt and you just deserve better.’

‘Megan, I don’t care. I want to be with you, I love you. So what if I get in trouble? I’ll handle it. I just want to be with you and make you happy. We can make this work.’ he says while taking my hand in his.

‘No, no I can’t. You will get hurt. You don’t know what Daniel is capable of. He will hurt you and I can’t let that happen.’ ‘He can’t hurt me more than he already has.’ I feel my heart breaking when he says that. ‘Please Megan, give me a chance. Give us a chance.’ he says while he’s just inches away from me. The tension between us has risen and my heart beats like crazy. Our eyes are locked together and all I can think of is how much I want him, how much I need him. I want to be with him, call him mine and just mine, forever.

‘I love you.’ he says again and that’s all I need for now. I close the gap between us and press my lips against his. The kiss is very passionate and it seems to last for hours before we break it. ‘I love you too, Niall.’ I reply when our lips unlock again. ‘Be my princess?’ he asks me, looking into my eyes.

‘Yes, forever and always.’ I reply before I pull him closer again. He’s right. I have to give him, I mean us, a chance. I’m just hoping I make the right decision. But for now, I don’t care. As long as he’s here with me I’m okay.