The Cruise - Harry Styles - Completed

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Harry's PoV:

Last night was amazing, the full moon is my favourite time of year. It's the only night when I don't get the urges, when I can smell everything else around me and the smell of blood isn't taking over. Jayde smells like caramel and it's honestly the best smell ever. I had to use that opportunity to see Jayde, I know I've pushed her away but I needed to see her, to touch her because I don't know if I'm going to get another chance like that again. She probably thinks I'm a crazy bipolar freak by now, the next time I see her I'm going to have to push her away again, it's so unfair on her but it's better than what could happen if I get too close. Seeing her with Louis really fucking hurt, I know I haven't got a right to be angry because she's not mine, but it does hurt, especially because he's one of my closest friends and he knows what I'm going through, he completely took advantage of the situation.

"Bro I'm going to see Shannon, you coming out today?" Niall asks, breaking me out of my thoughts.

"Maybe later" I sigh, looking out the window. Niall managed to get me some fresh blood but I'm not sure how long that will last me, my cravings are getting worse as the days go on. It really sucks that I have to go through this alone, the fucker who turned me doesn't even care how I'm coping, he's long gone. He knows if he comes near me again I'll use all the strength I have to kill him, he's ruined my life.

I'll never be able to have a normal life, a normal relationship with an amazing girl because all I want to do is rip her throat out. How do I even begin to explain something so messed up?

I can't.