Unwanted // one direction fanfic

Chapter 14

I watched Zayn leave and I hated myself. I wanted to have fun and forget I was the one that sent him away. “I heard there’s a cool club that just opened.” Erica smiled.

“You club?” Me and Kozac asked.

“You kidding? Townies party the hardest!!” Isaiah laughed. We already knew that, we were those townies. We got changed up in my room.

“Damn Becs you look sexy!” Carly cheered.

“Thanks.” I laughed. “You guys look awesome.” I walked over to the mirror and examined my extremely short mini skirt and red crop top, bringing out my bright red lips and heels. The others just wore tight tiny dresses and we went down and met the boys.

“DAMN!” Isaiah smiled.

“He’s not joking.” Kozac laughed. We all made our way out to the car and drove off blaring music and shouting along with it. Finally we made our way to the club, we took a few shots of vodka before Isaiah smiled at me.

“Wanna dance?” He smiled. I downed two more and nodded. He grabbed the bottle and we made our way to the floor. Grinding and drinking until I couldn’t think, it got hot and steamy fast. We made our way to the bathroom to get some air.

“Damn this club is awesome!” I cheered before his lips mashed into mine. I didn’t think that it was that kind of thing but soon my back was against the wall and everything was sloppy. Then I thought popped into my head. “Wait zayn...blaine.. whatever the hell his name is now!" I breathed. Unfortunately caring nice me lost the battle to drunk as fuck me and soon there was a condom and strange bathroom sex. We came out of the bathroom and started dancing again. I made my way over to Kozac at the bar.

"I'm actually a complete ass." I groaned.

"Look what this guy gave me?" Kozac smiled, holding a bag of weed.

"Man you're drug free don't even try." Another round of drinks later we all sat in a circle in an alley and passed joints around.

"Townies fucking party harder than anyone else." I laughed, "no one can ever tell me otherwise."

"I love you." Kozac turned to me.

"What?" I breathed.

"I don't need drugs because you are my drug, I'm addicted to you."

"I can't tell if that's cute or sad." I frowned taking another drag.

"Cute." Carly smiled.

"Sad." Erica and Isaiah mumbled.

"I'd say cute." A dude smiled. We all looked to him.

"Who the hell are you?" I asked.

"I dunno." He breathed getting up and walking away. When the buzz and high wore off I was back home. It all happened when I looked at myself in the mirror and saw a person who wasn't me.

She was a disheveled whore who had done drugs for the first time with a friend that Skylar sobered up, she was what my dad saw me as. I was losing myself, falling with no one to catch me, no one who cared.

I was Rebecca, and guess what?

I missed Skylar more than anything in the world. I missed Harry making cheeky jokes at the breakfast table, John being an overprotective cunt, Mom yelling at me, Rae being the annoying little sister stealing all of my clothes, talking things out with Gemma, Gabe and Matt being little trouble makers, Zayn being the only one who understood me....

Kozac may have found his home as Jake but I didn't. It only got worse as the month quickly passed by. It was 2 weeks until my moms wedding and all I had done since that night was lock myself in my room crying. I would eat what Kozac brought me but nothing else.