Unwanted // one direction fanfic

Chapter 26

Short Chapter, but you'll realize why when you read

My mom told me the week my Grandpa died that people must have a feeling they are going to die, not a scary feeling, or sad, just a feeling that you’ve never felt before and never will again. I felt overcome with a feeling, it was sort of calming. I lifted Connor out of the nurses arms. We were finally about to take him home… Little did we know we weren’t. I followed Aiden out to the car. “I have a strange feeling…” Aiden admitted. “I don’t know what it is.”

“Me too.” I laughed. “Let’s just get home so we can see Nicki and Zack, I miss them so much it’s hard to handle.” I put Connor in his tiny carrier and sat in the back with him. Aiden climbed in the front and we started the drive to the airport.

 But we didn’t make it.

A sudden impact hit our car. Everything felt like slpow motion, like how people say in the movies..

I ripped Connor from his carrier and held him to me chest as i felt shards of glass and other material hit my body in effort to protect my little babe. But soon the world went black. He would never be UnWanted. As I felt my life slipping away, I knew I never was either. I just grew up in a world where people didn’t know what love truly was, or how to act when you are loved. I thought back to my child hood meormies, my first crush, first kiss, Harper, John, My mom. No one knew how to love, no one at all. But that’s okay, they’re all getting better.

 

I realized that I will never be able to hear Connor say his first words, or know if he would ever say them.

I would never be able to see or hug Nicki or Zack again.

Or tell Zayn I really have always loved him.

That my heart would always be spilt in two, between him and Aiden.

I could never tell Harry and Gemma how grateful I was to have had them in my life.

I could never tell Andrea I trusted her with my life.

Or be her maid of honor like we were always planning.

I couldn’t tell Harper that trying isn’t an excuse for not doing, because right now I was trying my hardest to hold onto my life for them.

I couldn’t tell John how he was my savior.

I can’t tell Erica thank you for everything she’s ever done for me.

She’s like my sister now.

Or Liam to take care of her.

Or Niall to take care of Karrah and if he hurts her I will literally tear his heart out.

Or to you guys, thank you for being there to listen to me the whole way through.

I only ask one thing of you.

Please make sure my kids turn out alright?

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AUTHORS NOTE

DONT HATE ME PLEASE :(

~stay random