I can't believe he got me to do this... I folded my hands over my chest and slumped into the couch. "Mr. Malik, your 7 year old son is acting more mature than you right now." Dr. Joyce said sternly motioning for me to sit up.
"Yeah Mr. Malik." Zack laughed... Mr. Zayn... I should really stop thinking so much, but I couldn't let this memory slip through my mind.... “Hi.” I smiled at the love of my life standing across the counter from me... She was so close I could smell her comforting smell, she smelled like no one else, she smelled like home.
“Hi.” She smiled back. “So I see you’ve met Nicki.”
“Yeah, she’s beautiful.” I grinned.
“She has your hair, and a bit of your face. She really is your kid.” Skylar smiled. “But there’s more-”
“We’re home!” A voice called throughout the house. I turned to see a man holding the hand of a little boy, almost the exact carbon copy of Nicki except I was looking into my own eyes.
“Twins?” I mumbled to myself.
“Oh I didn’t know you had company.” The man smiled at me. “I’m Aiden.” He said walking over and holding his hand out for me to shake, I took it.
“Aiden this is Zayn.” Skylar said carefully.
“Nice to finally meet you.” He smiled. “Zack why don’t you say hi to our guest.” He turned back to the little boy... my son...
“Hi Mr. Zayn.” Zack said emotionless.
“Baking with the kids?” Aiden smiled at Skylarwho nodded. “Fun. I’m going to run out to the store to pick up things for dinner.” Then I noticed his wedding ring. I looked over to see Skylar's identical one and an engagement ring with it. I instantly felt sick. Skylar walked over to Zack and I saw it, the earth shattering thing. She was pregnant with his baby, and that baby wasn’t an accident. This baby was Conor.
“Hi Daddy.” Nicki smiled running over and giving Aiden a hug. She called him Daddy. I was their dad. I kept silent as Aiden left and Nicki led me to the counter where Hannah handed us cupcakes and decorating tools and things. “Hey Mister-”
“Mr. Zayn.” Zack mumbled.
“-Mr. Zayn? Did you know Aiden’s not actually our Daddy, our real daddy is somewhere fighting dragons!”
“..Or driving race cars.” Zack added.
“I’m so sorry.” Skylar looked at me.
(end of flashback btw)
What I would give for her to look at me one more time. Hold me close and let me inhale her smell, look at me with those electric eyes... Zack crawled onto my lap and hugged me. I was excepting for him to tell me that it was okay and there was no need to cry, but he didn't.
"It's okay papa, we all need to cry every once in a while." He smiled burying his head in my neck. "I cry when I miss mommy and daddy, because it hurts.... Papas' can be hurt too, anyone can be." I laughed lightly as the tears streaming down my face.
"That's so sad... And cute... And sad." Dr. Joyce sniffed reaching for the tissue box, not for us, for her. We were in such bad shape we made the therapist cry.. Great.
"What was your favorite thing about mommy? Mine was her eyes, her hugs, how she can make everything better, her I love you's, and her goodnights. With Daddy it was his piggyback rides, his bad jokes, Saturday morning cartoons, and-" he started trembling from his tears. "Papa I miss them."
"I miss them too Zack." I breathed, I could tell he needed more though. "I miss the way Aiden raised you two like his own, how he would always do anything and everything in the world for you guys and your mom. I miss your mom, every little thing about her. How her sneezes were so sudden not even she knew they were coming, her cooking, the way her eyes squinted when she laughed, the way she loved you, her hugs, her kisses, I miss her." I mumbled into the top of his head. The timer went off in the corner, and everyone froze and stared at it.
"Well session over."
"I'm going to go potty." Zack told me before walking out.
"Mr. Malik-"
"Don't say you feel sorry for me or anything, it doesn't help. Nothing can erase the fact I tired to take their twins away from them for the last two months if their lives, that Connor is a preemie because of me, that they got in that car and died in the first place. That's the way Skylar's left remembering me by is a heartless bastard who tired to make her hurt how she hurt me. I should have just visited like I said and left. But I didn't. I'm selfish, I took lives, I took parents, I took my kids happiness."
"At least they have you-"
"Whoever said that was a good thing?" I snapped before walking out. "Come on let's go." I breathed as Zack slipped his hand in mine.
"When was the last time you were happy?" Zack asked with a frown.
"W-Why?" I asked nervously. He shrugged but didn't answer. When was the last time I was truly happy? The situation couldn't have been worse, Kozac had just been shot, she was caked in his blood, but I just saw her in front of me again and wanted to take her in my arms. The body guards dragged her away, I watched people in hazes around me as I followed after her. The second she walked out of the room I took her in my arms. "Please never leave me again." I breathed into her ear as my protective grip on her tightened. She let out a deep breath.
"Zayn I'm pregnant." She whispered. My mind was spinning and fogging but I made sure my hug kept its strength though, she needed to know I was there for her... Them. It was silent for a minute.
"What are we going to do?" I breathed.
"You said we..." She sniffed as tears streamed down her face soaking my shoulder.
"I'm not going to leave you, I can't, I physically can't handle it." I pulled away to look her in the eyes and catch some of her tears with my thumb. We could do this, she'd never have to cry again.
"Zayn they don't know that you came and visited me, they can't, it would ruin your relationships." She pointed out. I looked at me carefully. Did she honestly think that mattered anymore? "They can't know it's yours, I can't ruin your life."
"You only make my life better Skylar." I laughed weakly, the happiness spilling away and a lump forming in my throat.
"We both know that's a lie." She breathed. My eyes dropped to the floor. "I'm sorry Zayn."
"Only two minutes and you're already leaving me again." I laughed sadly. "I should have known."
"It's not because I don't love you, I do, too much, that's why I'm doing this." I just turned and walked away, leaving them and my happiness behind. I should have stayed and fought, for her, for them. I should have convinced her that the things she was so worried about didn't matter.
I always wondered if she wanted me to stop and turn around, tell her that it wasn't that easy to get rid of me, to take her in my arms and let her know that with my kiss. I think that's what hurt the most. I could have been with her. I could have had everything I always wanted. Her.
I wonder if I ever made her feel UnWanted?
It turns out that if anyone had ever felt UnWanted, it was me.
I let her lies get to me.
The lies she used to protect herself.
I didn't fight for her.
Oh what would I give to be able to fight for her
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hey guys here is another chapter.. :) erm... like, comment, share, all the shizzz
okay also I am putting some picture on the side, this one has a picture of baby zack and nikki so you might want to check it out, ( zack looks just like zayn btw because it is baby zayn hehe :D Also imagine nikki a little more tan lol )
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Unwanted // one direction fanfic
Fanfiction“What the hell are you doing?” I spat at Zayn. He just pulled away from her to look at me. “Get your hands away from my sister.” “Harry I’m so sorry-” “Oh really I’m your sister now?” She spat getting up and marching right up to me. “Why th...
