Broken porcelain a Josh Ramsay fan fiction (plus a little bit of Tyler Joseph)

Bad dreams and cutting

Katie's pov

I heard talking in the front room so I got out of my bunk to go see if maybe we were stopping somewhere. I walked out and saw Amanda and Ramsay hugging. I groaned. "Seriously? I just beat him up and now your hugging him? Ugh"

They both jumped and Amanda smiled at me guiltily. "Sorry" she said, smiling slightly, and looking down. I just laughed and walked back to my bunk. I checked the time. 11:38. That's why I'm so tired. I went into my bunk and quickly went in Instagram and Twitter before turning out my little lamp and closing the curtains fully.

I looked around and found myself in an empty parking lot. "Hello?" I called but it seemed like no one was there. I heard a scream and instantly turned my head to where it came from. There stood Jacob, towering over top of Amanda, who was strewn across the ground. He had a sneer on his face as he kicked her in the ribs. She cried out in pain and I tried to scream at Jacob to get away from her and tried to go over there but it seemed like I was in slow motion, and I couldn't make any noise. Jacob looked up at me and grinned evilly, before walking over to me. As he got closer he slowly started to look different. He was finally standing in front of me and it wasn't even Jacob anymore, it was Tyler. He looked worried, and sad. "Katie! You have to go! Please! Katie I can't lose you!" He sounded desperate. I tried to ask him what he was talking about, when all of a sudden he fell to the ground clutching his throat. His face was pale and stricken as he pointed behind me. I turned around to see someone who looked just like Tyler, except he had red eyes. I faced my Tyler and he whispered "blurryface". I turned back around as blurryface slowly started to walk towards us humming "my names blurryface, and I care what you think." As he hummed it again he raised a gun and pointed it at Tyler and said "I don't care what you think" and pulled the trigger. I screamed and dropped to the floor, grabbing tylers hand and crying.

"Katie! Katie shh it's just a dream" I heard. I opened my eyes, which were wet with tears, to see Tyler standing over me. He lied down next to me and wrapped his arms around me and I instantly laid my head on his chest. He stroked my hair softly and started to sing goner to me.

"I'm a goner,
Somebody catch my breath,
I'm a goner,
Somebody catch my breath,
I wanna be known,
By you,
I wanna be known,
By you,
I'm a goner,
Somebody catch my breath,
I'm a goner,
Somebody catch my breath,
I wanna be known,
By you,
I wanna be known,
By you,
Though I'm weak,
And beaten down,
I'll slip away,
Into the sound,
The ghost of you,
Is close to me,
I'm inside out,
You're underneath,
I've got two faces,
Blurry's the one I'm not,"

By then I had drifted back off to sleep, Tyler singing and holding me tight, and I didn't wake up until morning.

Amanda's pov

After Katie left me and Josh talked. It was not really about anything, just kind of telling stories, or sharing dreams, stuff like that, when Matt, and Ian came out of the back room.

"Mike's on the phone with Megan so we left to give him a little privacy" Matt explained once he saw our questioning looks. "So your guys' fight didn't last very long." Ian said.

I shrugged. Matt walked over to where I had put my sketch book down and looked at me saying"can I look at it?"

I quickly got up and grabbed it saying "I'm sorry, it's kind of personal." He smiled and said "that's okay".

"Hey let's put on a movie!" Ian suggested.

"The goonies!" Josh yelled and got up from the the couch to put the goonies in to the DVDs player.

I groaned and said "but we watched that a little while ago". Josh turned back to me and said "aw muffin" , faking feeling bad for me. I flipped him off and said "fuck you". He smirked. "On the bus? You kinky little fuck"

I blushed and said "that's not what I meant!" Matt and Ian both laughed, with made me blush even more. I tilted my head down so that my hair would cover my face like a curtain, but remembered that I put it in a ponytail earlier. I covered my face with my hands, only to have someone take my hands off of my face. "Don't cover your face! You look cute when you blush" Josh said. Of course that only made me blush more but I couldn't cover my face because Josh was holding my hands so I wouldn't.

"Just turn the fucking movie on" I mumbled.

Josh laughed and turned it on, then sat down next to me. I rested my head on his shoulder and slowly my eyes started to droop. By the end of the movie I was so tired and I think Josh knew because he said "we're gonna go to bed now" to Matt and Ian. "Use protection!" Ian called to us and they both laughed. Josh scooped me up bridal style and I thought how the hell does he lift me up? I'm so heavy! And with that I started to feel sad again.

Josh put me into my bunk and I got up and I told him that I was going to the washroom.

I went into the washroom and grabbed my razor that I hid in with my eyeshadow. I pulled my sleeve back and looked over my wrist thinking fat lot of good rehab did to me as I slid the razor across my wrist a couple times. I quickly cleaned it up and put some bandages on and changed into my pjs. They were red cotton short shorts and a blue and red thin tank top. I cleaned up any mess and put my razor away, feeling much better, and then made my way back to my bunk.

I opened the curtains of my bunk to find Josh lying there in only his boxers, looking at the top of the bunk. He looked at me and his eyes drifted to my boobs. I smacked him and said "you know I can see you doing that your perv."

He smirked and scorched over so that I could crawl into the bunk too. I turned to him and said "so where does this put us?" "Um... In a bunk?" Josh smirked. "No, like what are we?" I asked.

"Well would you be my girlfriend?" He asked.

I pretended to frown and started to say no. His smirk disappeared and I laughed saying "of viruses I want to, idiot." He pulled me into him and wrapped his arm around my waist. I rested my head on his chest and he started drawing little designs into my hand with his thumb. All of a sudden his thumb went up my sleeve where the cuts where and I yanked my arm back.

He looked at me with wide eyes and said "did you..." He trailed off.

He grabbed my arm and I tried pulling away but he held onto my arm and rolled up my sleeve. He looked at my wrist and without saying anything, he kissed all my scars.

He looked up at me and said "why?"

I just shook my head and he got that I didn't want to talk. He wrapped his arm back around my waist and I fell asleep with my head in his chest.