MADNESS (Kellin Quinn Fanfiction) -COMPLETED-

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A/N: I JUST WANNA TAKE MOMENT AND SAY HOW SORRY I AM FOR DEATH OF TOM SEARLE FROM ARCHITECTS. HE ALWAYS FOUGHT WITH CANCER NEVER LET IT GET ON HIS WAY WHILE MAKING MUSIC AND TOURING. HE WAS ALWAYS FULL IF LIFE AND THE WORLD WILL BE NEVER THE SAME WITHOUT HIM. HE WILL BE NEVER FORGOTTEN. RIP TOM.

"What?! No you aren't." I stated with a stern voice.

"Am I'm serious. I'm moving in with Vic." She informed.

"What the actual fuck? What the fuck are you talking about?" I simple yelled. My hands and legs were shaking. This wasn't happening.

"He came to the town after you left. And we're leaving today." She stated.

"Oh my god. You two were planning this, weren't you? I can't believe you." I shouted madly. "You at least could've told me. What am I to you? How could you throw away our friendship?!!"

"I'm not throwing away anything. But I have to do this. Otherwise I'll never be happy." She said with a sad face. But this wasn't enough to calm me down. "Look, we don't have time. I tried to call you but your battery died I guess-" I cut her off.

"Yeah sure. You go, get out of my fucking life. I don't wanna see you ever again." I shouted one more time before I stormed out. Entering my room, I slammed the door. Dropping everything on the floor, I slid down. I buried my face in my hands, letting tears stream down my face.

I can't believe any of this. I cant believe she could do this to me, without saying anything earlier. I wouldn't stop her if she talked to me about this. Okay I wouldn't be super supportive but at least I'd try my best. Now she doesn't deserve any support from me. She fucking left me. She fucking betrayed me. Me, Her best friend, roommate, family -at least I thought so. But I now, it's clear that it all was a lie. What a shame.

***

After crying myself to sleep I woke up at 5 in the morning. For being a person who doesn't know how to deal with what they feel, I was pretty hopeless. I may be look like I don't care anything but this is was a huge breakdown for me, for my life. Because, to be honest, I hadn't have to deal with such a problem in the past. My family always took the best care of me when I was younger. They always babied me, and protected me from anything harmful, anything that could hurt me, sadden me. But now that I was a big girl, I have to deal with what I feel. (A/n: there's no distraction to mask what's real. -lol-)

I went out of my room, walking towards the living room. I plopped down on the couch, starting to stare at the black screen of tv. Damn what do I do now?

Something caught my eye on the coffee table. It was a paper, I took it.

Dear Am

I never wanted it to happen like this. You have every right to be mad. But please try to understand me. I'm sick of waiting for love, waiting for something to happen. I needed to do something. Also Vic and I are in love, he hasn't said it yet but I know it. I transferred myself to San Diego so everything is fine and set. Please try to understand, I need to live the life I want.

Ps I left the car's keys on the counter. I know you'll get what you want like I did. Good luck. Don't forget to visit me when you can.

Much love

-Davina.

This was explaining everything. Yesterday we didn't talk much so she haven't told me what's she gonna do there and all that stuff. Man, this sucks.

I threw the paper away. I dont want her goddamn car. I couldn't care less about it right now. Couldn't help but feel mad. I should've understand her too. She can't always love with me. She has a life too. I know this is what I should do, support her. But no, I can't help it. I'm so hurt and mad.

I went up to kitchen and took all the alcohol and drink that could make me think less. Then went back to the living room. Putting my head between my hands, I thought. So this how it's like to feel lonely I guess. I never felt this actually. I was always self confident and independent and more importantly not alone. So I guess there are ways not to feel a thing. Like Drinking.

***

I woke up to the sound of the bell. I quickly got up from the couch, only sat back with head rush and hangover.

"Fuck." I murmured, slowly standing up and walking up to the door. I opened it nad there stood non other than a worried Kellin. Once he saw my messed up hair and clothes, he furrowed.

"Hey, are you alright?" Kellin came in quickly taking off his jacket and leaving it on the counter.

"No." I stated faintly.

"Come here." He said as he wrapped his arms around me. I put my head on the crock of his neck and started to cry. Soon enough I was sobbing loudly.

"She left, just like that." I said through the sobs.

"Shh, it's okay. You're gonna be okay." He soothed as he stroked my hair. His presence soothed me so well which in a way I've never thought was possible.

I don't know how long we stayed there in the entrance but after awhile we came in to the living room.

"Damn Am, were you drinking?" He asked.

"How come you couldn't tell?" I asked him as I laid on the couch. "My head is exploding. Crying doesn't help hangover."

"Wait I'll make you coffee and bring painkillers. He said as he grabbed the empty alcohol bottles taking them with him.

Again I have no idea how long till he came back with water, painkillers and coffee. I swallowed the pills with water and took the coffee from him.

"Thank you Kellin." My voice cracked at the end I was holding the tears back.

"It's no problem baby. I'm here for you." He stated as he sneaked his arm around my shoulders. I put my head on his shoulder.

"I've never lived alone you know. And her leaving me like that just hurts me a lot. We've been living together since college." I said to him.

"Were you still living with her when you were married?" He asked. Gosh, I almost forgot.

"No except that. Again I wasn't living alone back then either. " I said, covering up the situation.

"Oh, right." He said. After that no one said anything. We just stayed in the same position all day probably.

A/N: I WONDER WHY AREN'T THE RECENT CHAPTER GETTING VOTES? I KNOW PEOPLE READ THEM THOUGH, ARE THEY ALL SO BAD? IF SO TELL ME WHY, SO I WOULD KNOW AND TRY HARDER.

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