Unexpected

Things I Heard [16]

Paige

I had no idea if I would live or die. Sure it was in my control, but that doesn't mean that my body had other ideas. Everything was black until I realized that I could see what was happening. I didn't want to see some of those things. Do you know how scary it is to see yourself being rushed to the emergency room?  Seeing the look on everyone's faces was horrible. 

I couldn't imagine how I would feel if someone else was in my situation. Everyone trying to tell themselves that everything will be okay. That wasn't even the worst part. Since being in a coma was basically a deep sleep, I had dreams. Dreams I couldn't wake up from. Some were nice, others ended badly.

I would try to wake up but my body wouldn't let me. I couldn't scream, cry, smile. Nothing. My body was telling me not yet. That was even more frustrating.

I watched my mum cry so much. I have never seen her cry that much since my brother Isak passed away when I was thirteen. Alexa and Becky weren't taking it well either. I've known Becy since I was fifteen and we have been best friends since. Alexa and I have been best friends since NXT. Seth was a different story.

I have known him since FCW. I know how he acts. He doesn't really like to show his emotions in front of people. So I knew he was hurting every time he happened to look at me. When my mum would be sleeping on the couch, he would let his emotions go. It was sad to watch. Stephanie was hard to watch too.

First off, she's like four months pregnant. She already has enough stress on her as it is. She came down from Connecticut to see me everyday. I mean, she has three daughters, is the Chief Brand Officer of WWE, has an on screen character, travels around the world to represent WWE. I can go on and on. That proves that our bond is really strong.

Now, I'm going share two dreams I had. One was good, the other one, not so much. I'm not sure if one of the dreams is a sign for the future or what. But it was a bit creepy.

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I was back in Norwich for some reason, but I didn't feel like... I don't know... my version of normal? I was sitting on my bed, watching some of my old matches from Shimmer and WAW. I looked at the corner of my bed to see the journal I used to write in when I was younger. I grabbed it and flipped through it. The last entry that was written in it was from 2011 when I was got signed. But the very last time I wrote in that journal was in 2011 the day I left to that states.

Oh great. I got up and looked at my self in the mirror. Haha I was my eighteen year old self again. I honestly don't know what I am looking at. I had blonde streaks in my black hair and I can honestly be in better shape. I flipped back through the journal and read the last entry and decided to read it, no matter how cringe worthy it was.

6/03/11

Well today has been the shit. I was trying to promote my family's wrestling show tonight but people were just so damn rude. I was being nice but no, they want to be bloody rude and treat me like shit. I ended up getting in a fight with some guy on the street. My brothers had to pull me off of him. The wrestling show wasn't that bad. Me and mum won our match. I just don't want to go to the states by myself. Sure WWE is a great opportunity for both me and my family, but I won't see them for a long time. Bradley and I have been together for about two months now. I can't tell if he really likes me but lets see. 

Well, that was before my life was changed. I thought it was the last entry but then I remembered I had written one last entry in the back of the journal before that, just in case someone were to get a hold of it. I flipped to the back and saw the two entries that I didn't want to read, but stupid me read it anyway.