I Am STILL In Love With My Childhood Crush. (One Shot Story)

"Do you remember me?" 


I always wanted to ask that question, pero mahirap..

lalo na kapag natatakot ka sa isasagot niya kung natatandaan ka pa ba niya o hindi na.

Hanggang ngayon kasi ....

mahal ko pa siya..


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I was 8 when I first saw him, bagong lipat sa tapat ng bahay namin.

Minamasdan ko siya habang papasok sa kanilang bahay at di ko namalayang na huhulog na pala ako sa kanya.

I began to be friends with his sister (4 year old) after that he and I began to talk and play occationaly but..

I was too shy to be around him...  

nahihiya ako kasi , crush ko  siya...




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Then one night in 5th grade ...


Nalaman kong papaalis na siya papuntang Manila.

Pumunta ako sa bahay nila para magpaalam

ngunit ,

hindi ko siya naabutan,

umalis na siya ...

 and I never had the chance to say goodbye .. 



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for a year I cried for him and regreted never telling him how I felt ...



After 6 years at the age of 15, 

I saw him at school ...

I was quite shocked and panicked. I don't know what to do... and my heart .. it's beating fast 

"what to do , what to do? "

Then my friend dragged me with her and asked HIM if he remembers her from elementary,

but he doesn't .. so that means ,

he doesn't remember me either.

During that brief moment...

we exchanged glances but i don't have the courage to talk to him, I went blank. 

I dont know what to do.....

if only I wasn't so awkward around people, I could talk to him and be friends once again.

even though I don't deserve him but I do hope that one day, he will find the girl of his dreams and that he will find happiness.

"If you love someone, let them go. If they come back to you then they're yours forever, if they don't return, then they were never yours to begin with."

if i knew how he felt for me as child then I could probably let go of him but i will never know unless I will change who I am

which is nearly impossible, my shyness, akwarness, mean looking persona since I'm tall and big boned, and my inability to talk to the opposite gender. But if I had courage, my first question will be: do you remember me?

FIN. 

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Author's note: I hope you liked it. First time ko pong gumawa ng story :3 True story po yan base sa experience ko, pero physical appearance ng character ay malayong-malayo sa itsura ko xD. I'm not tall, average lang po height ko :3 Yan lang ^^

~Thank you po. ^^