Emotions-Buried deep within

Dear Diary

Dear Diary
Yes i am sad,again
No i never forget you.
Yes i need you now
No i wont deny i didn't need you
When i was happy.
Yes i know your worth now
You are the only one
Only one best friend i have.
You don't judge me
By my looks,my complexion or my dress
You are the only one
Who loves me for who i am.
Yes i forgot these.
I was blinded by the illusional love
Affection and care.
I thought for once in my life
That they think am beautiful
The way i am
That they love me
No matter how i look or dress up,
No matter what others say
They will love me,respect my being.
But you know?
I was wrong, so wrong.
No matter how much they love you
You still need to be beautiful enough
To deserve the love.
But i know you are not blinded
Blinded by the fake beauty
Beauty of this world.
We both know even the moon has scars.
Yeah i feel ugly.
I am not fair,
I don't always wear fancy dresses.
I don't find it important
Important to do my makeup all the time,
Important to check the shape of my nails,
Important to show how much i care
How much i respect.
But we both know,
The world believes the fake
And laughs at people like us.
They cringe their nose,
They criticise.
I know i am  imperfect
But so are they.
Dear diary,
I wish i could hug you and cry
I wish i had a friend like you.
But i know your worth
There can be no one like you.
Humans can't be like you.