Love Me (JUSTIN BIEBER FAN FICTION) ~NOT EDITED~

Chapter 11

I woke up and looked at myself in the mirror. Gross is all I have to say. Strands of my hair stuck to my face and my eyes were puffy from the crying. My heart hurt and all I wanted was to cuddle up to Justin and lay my head on his chest. He was my rock and it was the stupidest thing for me to do to let him go.

I go in the bathroom and take a shower. There are two showers in our apartment. One in Brian's room and one between Jason and my room. Brian asked me to take the masters bedroom but I insisted on him taking it. After I finish my shower I wrap my towel around myself and go back to my room.

I sit on my bed. How has it come to this? My life is the complete definition of anarchy. Its arduous to deal with what I had to overcome and what I must overcome now. I just wish I had a normal life like some people in the world. No problems except my mom getting on my nerves for being weird around my friends and my dad embarrassing me in front of my boyfriend. Only thong I have to worry about is getting grounded and getting mad when I find out I didn't record that show that only came on once.

Sadly, my life is completely different. I have to worry about what if the police fond Brian and send him off to jail? What if Lauren comes back and tries to harm any of us? What if Justin finds somebody else and forgets what we've had together? What if I start cutting from all the pain again? What if my eating disorder comes back?  The list goes on. I just don't want to go through so much pain. Sometimes I want it all to be over and see what will happen if I just ended my life right now.

I can't do that though. I have to be dauntless and stick through this situation. My heart started to go at its normal pace and I go up and put on my sweats. I layed on my bed and opened my laptop. I clicked on Netflix and started to watch White Collar. I love this show and me and Justin would watch it together. He would wrap his arm around my waist as I would put my head in the crook of his neck and we would just enjoy being with each other. Occasionally we would share small pecks on the lips that sent sparks through my body that I miss so much.

I went in the kitchen and their were boxes everywhere from our packing and unpacking. I went into a box and grabbed popcorn. After heating it up in the microwave I went back to my room. My phone started to buzz. I got a new one since the police set a tracking device on my other one and I didn't want them to know where I am. I text everyone my number so they would know it. It was from Cheyenne.

Cheyenne: Where have you been?

I have to lie. Telling her would ruin so many things.

Me: I moved to Ohio.

Cheyenne: Awwww that sucks! Why didn't you tell anybody?

Me: It was too hard to say goodbye. Can you everybody that I miss them.

Cheyenne: Yeah! People were asking about you so I just wanted to give you a call.

Me: Oh okay. Well I have to go. Talk to you later.

Cheyenne: Okay bye talk to you later!

Well this sucks. I wonder if they called Jason, probably. After I finished a few episodes I gave up and started to watch YouTube videos. I went to Justin's videos and he was with one girl. Apparently her name is Stephanie. She was beautiful and it made me jealous that he's with her even though I don't know their relationship.

I went off the video not wanting to get involved in what he does. It would drive me crazy. I went to music videos and stumbled upon AJR. I watched some of their old videos with them singing and turns out they're really great.

I'm so tired and I feel like passing out. My body is worn out from all the stress and I just want to sleep. I closed my eyes and immediately fell asleep.