That fight was one of the longest fights I had ever had in my entire life. What was seconds felt like hours. Minuets turned into years, and years into lifetimes. She dodged, I dodged. She struck, I struck. her blood flowed, my blood too. It was like an endless cycle of horror, plunging your own kunai into the only friend you have had in a year, plunging the knife into your sister, the one you told all your secrets to, the one who stroked your hair and told you not to cry, her own eyes filled with tears also. My heart felt so cold, so numb that I wasn't even sure if it was still beating. Every time I thought this was a dream, Rin's Shiruken would slice my skin, reminding me that this nightmare was real.
I had to put a stop to this, I was weakening, she was weakening, the moderator was getting suspicious. We weren't using our full strength. How could we? Our eyes were so misty from the tears we were shedding. I stopped and stood up, looking at Rin crouched on the wall, ready to strike. Blood stained her clothes, a mixture of both mine and hers. Her skin was covered in cuts, face battered, and yet she still looked like Rin.
Suddenly she disappeared from the wall and appeared right in front of me, a skill of hers that always outshined mine. Swiftness.
"What are you waiting for?" she screamed at me as she punched me in the face. I landed on my back, gasping for air. I thought I could do it, I thought I could bear the burden. I thought I could repay them back for all the things they had done for me, but I couldn't. I couldn't do it.
Rin jumped on my chest and grabbed my collar, pulling my ear up to her mouth.
"You know our Weakness better than anyone, better then the Sensei's. stop being a coward and do this. or I'll kill you myself." she growled into my ear. I raised my leg and kicked her off me. She was right, I knew her weakness, I knew the areas she lacked on. I knew how to take her down. But I just couldn't. I stood up, shuriken wavering in hand.
That's when I heard it. A soft whisper behind me. there one breath, and gone the next
"Please."
I closed my eyes, hoping that after I commit this deadly sin, I would once be able to see the sunlight again, that I would once be free.
But I knew better than that, even at 8 years old, I knew there is no mercy for the sins that I was about to do.
When I opened my eyes, I saw Rin, and when she saw my eyes, she smiled.
"There's my Ryuu"
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10 minuets later, she lay on the floor. Unable to move. Unable to fight. Blood seeping out of her. I sank to my knees beside her, holding my left shoulder as blood gushed out from it. I think she had cut through my tendon with her shiruken.
"I'm sorry" she gasped. "I guess when you know your going to die, your animal instincts kick in"
"It's okay" I told her. "It'll heal, a life wont." I said, my voice cracking.
Rin smiled.
"I'll tell you what, if you need anything from my body, like tissue for that shoulder, promise me you'll take it. Please? Promise me that." she said, reaching for my hand.
"I Promise" I told her, putting my hand in hers. she grasped my palm weakly.
"seems like i'm making you promise everything right now" she chuckled, blood coming from her mouth. "I've made you take my life, and now i'm making you take my tissue" she rolled her head to look at me. "The reason I made you do this, is because of one simple fact Ryuu."
"what's that?" I whispered, unsuccessfully trying to control my voice from wavering.
Rin smiled, her last smile.
"Your stronger than me." she said. I shook uncontrollably with sobs, my ribs racking against my skin.
"R-Rin" I began.
"Sush Ryuu. I want my last image of you to be of you smiling. You are my best friend, my sister. You are the only persons hand I want to die by, and now, now I can die happy because I got my wish. Don't get me wrong, I would have loved to live on with you, be by your side, but I guess beggars cant be choosers" she smiled.
"Rin."
"I will always be by your side, I will always be with you. I shall never blame you for anything."
I couldn't see her anymore, my tears were blinding me.
"Ryuu." she said, her voice coming to a whisper. I wiped my eyes and steeled my self, this was it. She could feel it and I could also. She was at her limit. I looked her straight in the eyes, past the blood, past the cuts, past the pain, into Rin.
"Thank you" she whispered and smiled, slight tears running down her face.
I forced a smile back, unable to say anything for fear I may break down again in front of her.
And then, she faded away.
A half of my heart had died, shrivelled and rotted away, in all but just a second.
I took her limp hand from mine with my good arm and laid it onto her stomach, and shut her eyes. She looked so peaceful, like she was sleeping. A part of me whished she was. A part of me whished I was her, whished I was dead. Whished we could swap places.
I held her close to me, crying into her neck. wanting her to come back. Not wanting the cold to seep into her. Wanting the blood to go back inside of her.
The wishful thinking of an 8 year old.
