Almost broken(bullied) , A phanfiction

#16 Last Chance

Phils POV

I leave the bathroom and cling onto my jumpers sleaves. It stings.

I don't go into my bedroom to see Dan, instead I put my shoes back on, grab my wallet and leave the house.

I run down my road. Then I run down another road. I run down another road and another one. I keep running until I'm lost.

I slid down a wall, out of breath and start crying. The tears silently slide down my cheeks.

I look at my surroundings. I'm sat down on a rather empty pavement by a rather busy road which I can only assume is part of the main road near-ish school.

I sit there for hours, watching the endless stream of cars. All I can think about is Dan. I want him to be normal, I want him to be how he was when he was nice.

I want to go back to when he kissed me. I wish he would again. I wish he would make me happy.

Why, oh why, do I love someone who wants to hurt me so bad.

Maybe I don't need to love him. I look at the cars going past.

Maybe I can just leave him alone. The cars seem so fast.

I stand up.

I walk forward.

Goodbye Da...

"PHIL."

No no no. I know that shout anywhere.

Dan runs towards me and pulls me away from the road.

"Ah fuck." I grab my arms, they still sting.

"Phil... I..." Dan looks at me. His face is clearly red from running, but there's also... tears?

"Get the fuck away from me, Dan." I've never sworn at Dan before but this time, I'm just so scared, I don't know what to say.

Dan looks taken back at first. I ready myself for a punch but it doesn't come. Instead he takes a few steps away from me.

"Say what you want." He looks down at the floor.

"Oh.." I pause, then I talk. "I am fed up. I'm fed up of you being so nice, so amazing then for you to start abusing me. I'm in love with you Dan. I don't want to be, but I am.  I can't help it. You're so amazing. That day you kissed me. And when you told me you love me. I thought we can finnaly be happy or whatever together. I wanted to be with you so bad but I don't know what I want know."

"Phil, I still love you, I always have. I'm going to change." Dan looks at me.

His beautiful sad eyes stare at me.

"I can't believe you. Sorry." I look away.

"Phil please." he starts to sound more aggresive again.

I step back but he steps forward. He grabs my wrist.

"No Dan." I wince in pain.

"Believe me." He whispers down my ear.

Although it was only a whisper, it still frightend me.

"Please stop, you're hurting me." I quietly say.

He squeezes my wrist more.

"Dan please!" I cry out in pain.

"Call me what I wanted, Philly babe." He gives me a sly smile.

"Sir please."

He lets go and looks into my eyes, his face barely a few inches away from mine. I bite my lip. Not because he's attractive or anything just because it needed biting, yeah, that's why.

"I can't trust you because look at what you just did. You were fine and saying you were going to change and then you grabbed me."

"I thought you liked it when I grabbed you like that, Philly baby." He smirks.

"Uh..."I blush."I mean you grabbed me to hurt me.

"Yeah sorry. Please come home. I am going to change. I'm going to get medicine and make it better. I'll only touch you when necessary." His eyes meet mine.

I think I believe him. But what does he mean by 'when necessary'? When will he need to ever touch me, unless he means... probably not. I think he's only saying he loves me so I'll help him get better then he'll just leave and go back to being normal Dan.

I don't care. If that happens at least it means I got to be with him for a bit.

"I'll go home. We'll fix it" I smile at Dan.

"Don't go too soft Phil." He says as we turn to walk the way I came.

"What do you mean?"

"I mean, that don't get full of yourself. You know I'll be the dominant one."

Does he mean..? No he doesn't. It doesn't matter what he means but whatever he meant made me shiver and I don't think it was a bad kind of shiver.

"You get one last chance and then, then I'm done."

"Deal. Philly."

"Deal. Sir."