Sensation

Chapter 28 - Azalea

The next couple of weeks slowly crept by as Mateo seemed to grow and also grow impatient. He was always hungry but he slept a lot so there wasn't much complaining on our end. Well except when he woke us up a couple times a night for the usual baby needs. Franky is the best though because time and time again would change his diaper so that I wouldn't have to get out of bed.

On this beautiful Saturday morning, Franky and I are lying in bed looking at Mateo's baby book. We've got pictures in here that I didn't even know Laila took during the pregnancy. She took a selfie while I was in the middle of pushing him out meanwhile still holding my hand. I think it's so funny because Franky is on the other side of me cringing in pain.

We put Mateo's birth certificate in there and of course his father's information wasn't there. I looked over at Franky as she was looking at the next page that had her adoption certificate there. I hate that I couldn't put Franky on the birth certificate and that she had to legally adopt Mateo but it's how the system works but she's just as much of his mother as I am.

I grabbed her face and kissed her all over like I always do. "Baby, I love you." She smiled from ear to ear and kissed my lips. "And, I you, my darling."

I held her hands in my hands and looked into her eyes. As I opened my mouth to speak, Mateo began to cry. I took a deep breath. "Hold that thought babe, I'll be right back." She hopped out of bed and went to get Mateo from Laila. I love that Franky goes half with me on motherhood. She does the diaper changing and I do the breastfeeding, this was actually her idea to make my life so much easier.

She came back into the room with Mateo and sat down next to me as she laid him on her chest.

"Okay baby, shoot. What's on your mind?" I wasn't sure how she would feel about what I was about to say so I was hesitant to bring it up to her.

"So, I was wondering..." I looked down at my hands then I looked up at her. "What if we find out who Mateo's father is?"

Franky looked over at me and locked eyes with me. "That's not what I thought you were going to say. But that's definitely something we can talk about. Do we really want to find out though? That might be weird just because we don't know the guy but if you want, we can baby."

I was feeling so indecisive about this, because she was right. It would be weird because we wouldn't know the guy and knowing me I'd want to reach out. I don't know, maybe we'll just find out and I'll swear not to say anything to him.

"I think that I want to baby. Can we?" She nodded her head and kissed my forehead as I closed my eyes, just thinking about the whole situation had me sort of stressed. I picked up Mateo and held him to my chest. It's as if he knew that he was lying on my chest because he started crying, wanting to be fed. I pulled my shirt down and he quickly found his way to my nipple, beginning to suck. These next few days are going to be interesting as we anticipate finding out the identity of our son Mateo's father.