Crash and Burns

(11) First Night

Chapter 11: First Night

"No one was really prepared to get hurt, right? Para inyong injection. Alam mo naman masakit iyon pero pipikit at pipikit ka pa rin. It was the anticipation of being hurt that was excruciating..."

And indeed I stay. I texted my girlfriends saying that I’m here to take responsibility with Chance I just felt guilty if I will leave him in his current state of situation.

He’s not shaking anymore yet he still has a fever.  Nakapulupot lang yung mga braso niya sa waist ko. I stared at him for quite some time he looks so peaceful while sleeping. I traced his eyes down to the bridge of his nose and down to the... Don't go there Max! I stopped what I'm doing and pushed his hands off  my waist I remember kailangan ko palang magluto para naman may makain ‘tong isang to. Luckily, hindi naman siya nagising.

Napansin kong basa pa din pala ang likod ng damit ko kahit naka AC na, baka magkasakit din ako kapag hindi pa ako nagpalit ng damit. So, I went to his closet para maghanap ng pansamantalang maisusuot and there I saw his jersey may nakalagay pang Villareal sa likod. Kinuha ko na naman at pumuntang cr para makapagpalit and after that tumalikod ako at tiningnan ang reflection ko sa salamin. Without having a clear explanation, my heart thudded wildly.

Eto na naman. Ang sarap lang kasing magpapicture habang soot mo ang jersey ng boyfriend mo nakakaproud.  It was included on my bucket list on what will I do kapag nagkaboyfriend na ulit ako not that I’m saying na si Chance na ‘yun.

‘Stop being hypocrite Max! You know that familiar feeling you are feeling right now, yes?’ I thought to myself. But still, I’m scared. No one was really prepared to get hurt, right? Para inyong injection. Alam mo naman masakit iyon pero pipikit at pipikit ka pa rin. It was the anticipation of being hurt that was excruciating.

Wait, what was I getting maudlin? Sigh. Before I end up slapping myself I exited the bathroom, throw one glance at him whose still sleeping peacefully on his bed then went to the kitchen to cook some… food? Haha. Hindi talaga ako kagalingan eh but hey I can manage. Yata? Edible naman siguro ‘to. So I started to prepare the ingredients and all that.

Habang hinihintay kong maluto yung adobo na pinaghirapan kong lutuin biglang may nagring, akala ko phone ko pero nakita ko yung phone ni Chance na nagriring sa ibabaw ng refrigerator. Kinuha ko naman baka kasi urgent yung tawag and there I saw a “Crosse” name flashing on the screen.

Damon..

I don’t know if I will answer it or not tulog pa si Chance ayoko namang maistorbo so I awkwardly answered it.

“H-hello..”

“Who’s this?” kahit sa phone ang cold cold ng voice niya.

“Uhh. Damon, si Max ‘to... ano tulog kasi si Chance kaya hindi niya hawak tong phone. May kailangan ka?”

There was a long pause. Hindi ko alam kung anong ginagawa niya.

“Forget it.” And then he hunged up. Just like that. Ano bang problema niya?!

There are too many things in this world na gusto kong malaman yung sagot. But there are some things in this world...

---that you want to keep as a mystery. And at this moment, I can name one.

I sighed once again at chineck na lang yung niluluto ko baka imbes na gumaling si Chance maospital pa dahil nalason. Ayoko namang mangyari iyon. After I’m sure na okay naman ang kinalabasan pumunta ulit ako sa room ni Chance at iyon ang magaling na lalaki imbes na magkumot nakahubad pa. Nakatakip ang kanyang braso sa kalahati ng mukha niya mas lalo kong nakita ang defined muscles niya sa dibdib. Ngumuso ako. Damn it! Why are you so sexy, man! Shit!