'Baby Lahey' // I.L // ✔ (MAJOR EDITING)

Chapter 10

ALEXIS' POV: 

Give me love like her, 'cause lately I've been waking up alone, Paint splattered teardrops on my shirt, Told you I'd let them go, And that I'll fight my corner, Maybe tonight I'll call ya, after my blood turns into alcohol, No I just wanna hold ya.

Give me a little time to me, or burn this out, We'll play hide and seek to turn this around, and all I want is the taste that your lips allow, My, my, my, my, oh give me love, my, my, my, my, oh give me love, my, my, my, my, oh give me love, my, my, my, my, oh give me love, my, my, my, my, oh give me love.

I sat there as the song continued, I was drepressed, I really was. My baby was gone and I never looked at the brighter side of things, only the worst side of things. Stiles tried so hard to get me to eat, never worked. He tried to get me outside, never worked. All I wanted to do was stay inside the house and listen to music all day and stare at the wall and think about how horrible life is right now. I fiddled with my phone and changed the song.

I found God on the corner of FIrst and Amistad, where the west, was all but won, All alone smoking his last cigarette I said, "Where you been?" He siad, "Ask anything."

Where were you when everything was falling apart? All my days were spent by the telephone that never rang and all I needed was a call, that never came to the corner of First and Amistad.

Lost and insecure, You found me, You found me, Lyin' on the floor. Surrounded, surrounded. Why'd you have to wait? Where were you? Where were you? Just a little late. You found me, You found me.

I listened to the song continue, staring at the wall while Stiles tried talking to me. I didn't want to listen so I just turned up the music more and just lied down under the covers and cry more about my ugly life as a horrible mother who let her child get kidnapped. 'its your fault' it kept repeating in my mind, 'its alllll your fault' 'horrible mother' 

I tried to get them out, never worked either. Never really worked in the house after my...you know got stolen from my while I was sleeping. Wow just wow. 

I got up carefully taking the earbuds out of my ear and walked towards his room. Stiles following close behind to see what I was up too. I walked slowly in the room, looking around at his stuff. Remembering the day I first brought him home...The first day I fed him actual food, He first words, steps, I remember it all which made tears well up in my eyes as I looked at the pictures of us hung up on the wall. 

He was such a happy child and still is. He always happy even if he doesn't know what's going on he still laughs and smiles...

I looked at Stiles as tears slid down my cheeks. He hugged me. I hugged back crying on his shoulder. I needed my baby back. But sometimes I think 'what if I don't get him back?'

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I sat down on the kitchen table for the first time since Noah was taken. I ate slowly still really sad about the whole thing since I haven't got ANY phonecalls about the whole mission of finding him or any calls from Isaac who is stll locked in his house. So me and Stiles decided to stop by after dinner.

We ate and went over, walking inside since Stiles knew where he hid the key. I looked around then spotted him on the couch crying terribly. I slowly walked over sitting next to him and putting a hand on his shoulder causing him to jump up. He stared at me for a while then pulled me in a hug which he cried on my shoulder. I rubbed his back, not in the mood to cry again then get a terrible headache so we just sat there.

But after a while Stiles and Isaac started talking. I wasn't in the mood to chat either. I haven't said a word for about 2 weeks at least. Just didn't feel like it. What's the point on talking if all they're gonna do is talk about my son which would make me cry even more about it so I just sat there listening. Listening to them talk about the mission that everyone is on except us. Who sit at home and cry all day, scared that maybe....MAYBE he could be dead. He could've been killed....Which obviously made me even more terrfied than ever!

**here ya go! Enjoy!**