Find my Way to You

This starts off where Ross tells Rachel that he can no longer see her anymore due to Emily's request. This will eventually be a R&R story. please read and review!

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Ross: "Rach. It's just that.. She won't let me see you anymore.." Ross trailed off holding her hands and sitting across from her on the coffee table.

Rachel eyes widened and she slightly chuckled.

"Wow. Um so I- I guess that your marriage is over then?" she whispered and leaned over to hug him. "I'm so sorry, I can't believe it's over because of me.." She mumbled into his chest.

Ross sighed and embraced her tightly. "Rach, I... I agreed."

Rachel suddenly stopped rubbing his back and didn't move.

"Rach?" Ross pulled away to look into her face. It was blank. There was no expression.

"Wh-what?" she whispered backing away, tears forming in her eyes.

"Look, baby.." Ross approached her quickly but earned a slap in the face.

Rachel was now uncontrollably sobbing. "Do I not mean anything to you? After all we've been through?" she asked in disbelief

"You mean more to me than anyone but-"

"shut up." Rachel interrupted and shook her head. "shut the hell up."

She was looking down holding her head.

"I obviously mean nothing. We spent so many years together! As friends and lovers and you're just not going to ever see me again for a girl you met a month ago?" Rachel was beginning to break down completely. "so I guess you've completely given up on us..."

"Us? What about us! You never suggested it until AFTER I was married!" Ross was now yelling and Rachel cried harder.

"Fine! You're right! Go have a wonderful life with Emily!" Rachel stormed off to her room and slammed the door shut leaving Ross feel like the worst man in the world. He hurt her. Again.

Ross walked up to her door and quietly tapped on it. "Rach. Rach please open up and listen."

There was no response so Ross opened the door to find Rachel on her bed destroying her oh so called "Ross Box".

"Rachel, stop! What are you doing?" he said running over to her and taking the scissors and picture out of her hand. He looked at it and saw the picture of them when they were together. It was them on the balcony. They had snuck away for a few moments to be together and Monica had taken a photo of them kissing and looking so in love. He stared at it remembering that day.

He swallowed and looked at her. "You were going to cut this?" he asked holdin it up.

"Yeah. I don't want any reminders of you if I'll never see you again." she stated matter of factly.

"Rach, don't do this. This is killing me just as much! We still have a week to spend together and-"

"no." Rachel blurted out. "when you leave today, I'll be out of your life."

"I dont want this, Rach! Just please act like an adult!"

Rachel sarcastically laughed and stared at him. "Sorry, my best friend and man I've loved for so long never wants to see me again! Sorry that the one guy I ever truly loved will never be mine again. Sorry that ill never see you again, or hug you, kiss you, be held by you, talk to you.. hell, anything to do with you! Im sorry that it upsets you. I'm sorry Ross! I'm perfectly fine with this!" she stood up and turned away but as soon as she did Ross stood up furious.

"Damn it, Rachel! I'm doing this to save my marriage."

"Fine." she simply stated and turned back around but this time Ross had had it. He grabbed her arm, spun her around and pressed her against the wall. He kissed her with all he had. His hands were on her sides and his body pressed tight against her. He ended the kiss by giving her a few soft kisses and pulling away.

He looked down and tucked her hair behind her ear. "That's how I feel about you. Don't forget it."

"Just leave."

Ross slowly walked to the door and turned back around to look at her one last time. He didn't know when he would see her again. She was sitting on the bed crying and he left. He left her there to remember all the times they had and realize just how much she loved him.