Find my Way to You

Vacation, maybe?

Ross was sitting on the couch in the living room waiting for Rachel to come back in the room. They were going to watch a movie together, and she had gone to go change into something more comfortable. Even though, Rachel always picked the sappy love movies he always enjoyed watching them with her because it meant time spent with her. Besides, every time they watched a movie together it turned into one of those little intimate moments and he of course enjoyed those. The feeling of her being his again was the greatest feeling in the world. She was his to love, his to protect, his to comfort, and he loved taking all of those roles. He needed her, and he had finally gotten her again and wasnt going to mess up this time.

All these thoughts were going through his mind when Rachel ran in and jumped onto the couch beside him plopping down Indian style. "Okay, I'm ready." she smiled putting her hair in a messy bun. It's silly, but Ross loved watching her put her hair up. She turned towards him in his lost state and smiled a big giddy smile.

"Baby, are you alright?" she giggled and he snapped out of it.

"I'm more than okay, come here." he finally got the words out and outstretched his arm and scooted her over to him. She put her legs over his and bent her knees so that she was still close to him. She loved being near him, and touching him. He made her feel warm and safe. He nonchalantly rubbed her lower back and she kissed his neck as they sat there.

Ross started the movie, and Rachel covered them up with the afghan on the couch and rested her head on his shoulder.

Ross put his hand on her thigh and rubbed up and down. He always did little things like that to show her he cared, even though she knew. After about 5 minutes, Ross turned his body slightly to face Rachel and stared at her.

"What?" she questioned looking up into his eyes.

"I just.. " he exhaled and swallowed. "I love you." he whispered and kissed her so softly. He pulled away and they each closed their eyes and rested their foreheads against each others taking in the moment. Rachel leaned her back into his and kissed him one more time before pulling away and resting her face in the crook of his neck and placing a single kiss there. "I love you, too." she mumbled and and he felt her slightly shaking underneathe his touch.

"Hey.. Baby.. What wrong?" he asked making her pull away from his neck and saw that she was crying.

"I just.. It's just that.." she paused to take control of her breathing again and began again. " a few days ago I thought I had lost you forever and now that I've got you I'm so afraid of losing you again." she cried wiping her own tears away. She looked down at her lap where her hands were nervously fidgeting.

"it's stupid I know."

Ross placed his hand under her chin and made her look up at him.

"it is stupid. You know why?"

She shook her head no and Ross pulled her into his lap so that she was facing him.

"Because someone would literally have to drag me away and then some in order for you to lose me because I'm not going anywhere." he said tugging at the strands of hair that fell around her face that didn't fit in her bun. She slightly smiled and then began to worry again.

"I'm just afraid I'll do something to drive you away again like all the other times.." she whispered and Ross was stunned. She never drove him away not once. She was blaming herself and it killed him.

"Rach, what are you talking about, it was all my fault-"

"except it wasn't." she interrupted. "I suggested the break, I spent all that time at work, I wrote that ridiculous letter. See? It's all my fault?" she whined on the verge of tears again.

"Hey, stop. No, you look at me." he demanded a little more serious this time. She looked up at him and he kissed her multiple times, deepening each one more and more each time.

"None of that was ever your fault."

"But-"

"No, buts. We're done with this coversations." he whispered and she leaned into him feeling his strong arms aroun her tiny body and she felt at home.

"What do you say, we take a break from this place and head down to the beach for a week with everyone again?" he suggested and Rachel immediately pulled away.

"Really?" she asked in a high pitched voice and Ross shook his head yes.

"I would love that, Ross." she smiled. "but no bald girls this time okay?" she pouted her bottom lip and poked his chest.

"Cross my heart." he promised and kissed her again.