New Boy {W.T}

Chapter 20

I pushed Sydney off of me and looked at Wes,

"Oh, hey Wes" I smiled

From the corner of my eye I could see Sydney elbowing Haley.

"Hello, what was that about?" He asked, chuckling.

"Oh nothing." Syd replied.

"Ok well I wanna watch a movie" Haley said, interrupting the awkwardness.

"Yeah, right. Let's do it. We're watching a sad movie..oops, sorry not sorry." I said sassily

We went on the couch and since it's a big couch we all fit.

I was going to sit by Sydney when she pushes me.

"Nikki, Wes looks lonely, go sit by him."

I gave her the dirtiest look.

I plopped down by Wes and he put his arm around me casually.

We were watching the movie and I was crying because it was the movie "my sisters keeper"

I could feel Wes looking at me, so I looked up at him with my tear stained face.

"What? I know I'm an ugly crier, watch the movie, not me." I snapped

"You're far from ugly, even when you cry and sorry I just don't like seeing you sad." He returned his eyes onto the tv

"Wes, I'm not sad. The movies sad." I laughed

He looked down and wiped my tear with his thumb.

"Thanks best friend" I smiled

"No problem babe"

I got butterflies and got up to make "food"

Haley followed.

"Hey, you alright?" She genuinely cared.

"Yeah I guess, it's just hard keeping something like this from him, ya know? He's my best friend and I tell him everything but this is like a secret." I admit

"Well then tell him how you feel." She said casually.

"What?? No!! That'd ruin everything."

"You never know if you never try, angel."

She left and I stayed in the kitchen, thinking. We go back on tour soon anyways. I can't tell him. Even if he likes me back, I can't lose him. He's my rock.

Just then he walked in,

"You know I love you, right?" He said, disturbing me from my thoughts.

"Yes Wesley, of course I know. Why?"

"I dunno. You seem stressed. I wanna help."

"Unfortunately.. You can't." I sighed.

He stepped closer.

"Well why not?" He challenged.

"Because you can't." I looked down.

"Nikki, you can fucking hide from everyone else, but no matter what.. I'm always going to be that one person you can't hide from. I'm not going anywhere. You should just tell me" he stepped even closer.

"I already told you, I can't. Fucking leave it alone Wes, you can't fix everything."

He was inches away from me now.

"Wes, back off. I mean it."

He knew just how to get what he wanted.

"Not until you tell me. You always try to hide how you feel but honestly, I know you too well for that shit. I know somethings bothering you and I'm not going to sit here and let it get you down. I can help."

I was so frustrated.

"Well.. Actually Wes, you can't. Youre the fucking problem. Stop prying into shit you have no business knowing!" I yelled.

My face was red and I was so mad.

"Don't put this on me. Nikki, you're a fucking mess, but you're me and sydneys mess. Bother me. Annoy me. Tell me. You're pushing everyone away."

"Fuck off Wes." I pushed him.

He grabbed me and pulled me into a hug. I started crying.

After a long pause, I finally let it all out,

"I have a million feelings and I don't know how to deal with them. I have so much on my mind." I cried to him.

He rubbed my back.

"I know Nikki, see this is why you need to talk to me. I love you. Syd loves you. Everyone loves you."

I don't know what possessed me to do this, but I got on my tip toes and kissed his cheek. I then hugged him again.

I needed something to hold on to, even if it was just a kiss on the cheek.

"I'm so thankful for you." I spoke.