"Jacob." I said. He looked into my eyes searching for what I was trying to say. Then he spoke up. "Why did you really not want me to meet you?"
I took a deep breath, and exhaled shakily. "Let's just say I don't have a past that I would exactly-" I thought for the right words but came up with, "look back on fondly."
"What do you mean? What happened that was so horrible?" Jacob pressed on. I could feel my face get hot as I started to panic.
"Too much to list." I muttered. I wanted to tell him everything, and just get it all out. But I couldn't. It was hard. Too embarrassing. Too painful to revisit all of it.
Jacob stopped and stood in front of me blocking my path. "Skylar, please." Jacob pleaded. He looked very concerned and took my hand.
I held my breath and closed my eyes as tight as I could. Don't let him in, don't let ANYONE in. He'll just leave, he doesn't like you. Don't let him in!!
"Skylar?" Jacob's voice was small and worried. I opened my eyes.
"NO JACOB, NO!!" I ripped my hand out of his. He looked shocked and sad. I cupped my hands over my ears and dug my fingers into my hair. I took a couple steps away from him and had my back facing him. I shut my eyes as hard as I could blocking out the world. I couldn't do this. I started to hyperventilate, and I felt tears creeping into the corners of my eyes. I could feel Jacob behind me, but he didn't dare upset me further.
Then I felt really lightheaded like I was going
to pass out. Then the tears escaped and practically flooded my face. I dropped to the ground and let out a scream. I was lying on the side of the road with my legs folded into my chest rocking back and fourth. This was it. My anxiety. It was really bad.
Then I finally noticed that Jacob was huddled up with me hugging me. Without thinking I found myself throwing my arms around him. I buried my face into his shoulder and cried. His hand went up and down my back comforting me. After a couple minutes he reached into my pocket and called my mom for me.
Jacob's POV
I felt absolutely horrible for what I did! I never meant to freak Skylar out. I was just in shock watching her, but when she fell I ran over to her and slid on my knees to hug her. To my surprise she hugged me back REALLY hard! Usually she was so funny, but now she was so vulnerable! It broke my heart. She nuzzled her head into my shoulder and I hugged her even tighter. I could've stayed like that forever, I don't care who might've seen. Once she seemed stable enough I decided I should contact her mom. I didn't have her mom's number so I took Skylar's phone that was sticking out of her pocket. I stayed hugging her, and commanded Siri to call 'Mom.'
"Hey Skylar, how's the ice cream?" Mrs. Spark's voice said happily into the phone.
"Hey Mrs. Spark, it's Jacob." I said hoping she wouldn't freak out.
"Jacob?! Where's Skylar, are you guys ok!!?" She said worried.
"Skylar had an anxiety attack." I said bluntly.
"What?! Is she alright?!"
"Yeah she's calming down, can you meet us on the road?" I asked.
"Of course! I'll be there to give you guys a ride back!" She said thankful that her daughter was safe.
"Okay! Thank you!" I hung up and gave Skylar her phone back.
"W-what's going on?" She said still shaky.
"It's ok," I said. "Your mom's gonna come get you." I said.
She nodded sleepily and I smiled at her. I couldn't help it. She wasn't asleep just a little out of it. I stood up with her in my arms and threw her up a little bit to correct my grip. Then I turned back towards her house carrying her bridal style. She looked around confused for a second and I smiled warmly at her. She smiled weakly back, closed her eyes and laid her head on my shoulder.
I carried her about 5 minutes down the road until I saw her mom's car pull over on the side of the road to pick us up.
The jumped out of the car. "Oh Jacob! I'm so sorry, you didn't have to carry her all this way!" She said worried as all mom's do best.
I laughed a little and shook my head, "no problem Mrs. Spark. She was just a little tired that's all."
I walked over to the car and Mrs. Spark opened the door and walked back to the trunk to get something. I gently set Skylar down in the front seat and buckled her in. She looked up at me with the sweetest blue eyes, and hugged me.
"I'll text you." I said smiling.
"Okay." She said and I started to walk away. "And Jacob," she said and I turned back around. "Yeah?"
"Thanks. For carrying me back." She said blushing.
"Anytime!" I smiled. "You're light as a feather!" I said laughing.
She smiled and looked down to hide her face a little. I could tell she was turning a bright pink.
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A.N.
Ok, so I was gonna keep going but this chapter is HUGE. So for the readers convenience I'll stop here for now and start another chapter. I hope you enjoyed this because I love writing this! Thank you so much, don't forget to click that cute little star down there and tell me what you thought. I should be out with a new chapter soon!! ❤️❤️❤️🤗
