"Hey, you booked those tickets, right?" I asked, curling up next to Niall on the couch.
"What tickets?" He was so invested in whatever game he was watching he wasn't even paying attention to me. Again.
"The plane tickets to London. Our 13 week scan is in 3 days, Niall."
"Oh, shit."
"Niall, I asked you last week to get the tickets."
"I know, I'm sorry, I'll book them right now okay?"
"Fine, I'll start dinner." I sighed going to the kitchen.
I had been cranky, tired and for the first time in my life sexually frustrated. Including Niall, I have had sex with two people, and I had gone an extended period of time without sex, but Niall and I haven't done it since we were in Indiana.
It was normally Niall who you had to throw in a cold shower, but right now, I couldn't do anything without something sexual popping into my head.
Maybe it was the fact I was getting bigger, or maybe the whole excitement of the relationship had finally wore off. Either way, I was going to have to seduce Niall tonight or I might go crazy. At least if he rejected me, I would know to give up.
Maybe we were officially in one of those ruts. I would make dinner while he watched TV, then we would talk about baby stuff, then we would go to bed. With no sex.
As expected, everything went the same as the last three weeks. Dinner and cuddling while he watched some game. I had to step my game up.
After dinner I went upstairs. I put on my sexiest bra and panties and one of Niall's shirts.
I sauntered downstairs and cuddled up to Niall's side. He slipped his arm around me and kissed the side of my head before turning back to watch the game, barely paying attention to me.
I nuzzled my face into his neck and started placing kisses along his neck and jaw.
"Mm, babe, I'm watching the game."
I could tell he was getting turned on.
I straddled him and kissed him, it had only been 3 months I wasn't going to let it get boring so soon.
"Baby...babe... Hannah stop!"
"What?"
"I said stop."
"Really, because it doesn't really feel like you want me to stop." I said kissing his neck again and grinding on his erection.
"Stop, Han. I just want to watch the game." He snapped. I hadn't had Niall snap at me like that before. Ever.
"Okay. I'm going to go upstairs..."
I was suddenly feeling extremely insecure and definitely unwanted.
I tugged his shirt down and ran up stairs. I grabbed my bag and started throwing my stuff in. I wasn't exactly sure where I wanted to go, but I needed go to London for my scan. Then where? Indiana? Mullingar?
I was bawling my eyes out, but I didn't want to cry. I hate crying so much.
"Han, baby, why are you crying?"
"Are you serious? Is it because I'm getting bigger, or are you just bored now?"
"What are you talking about?"
"You haven't had sex with me, since you came to Indiana, Niall. So, what's wrong with me?"
"Nothing is wrong with you! I love you Hannah. Just because we aren't having sex, doesn't mean I just stopped loving you!"
"I practically threw myself at you down there and all you care about was that stupid game!"
"Because I'm scared Han! Jesus, you think it's easy turning you down!? But after what happened back in Indiana, I freaked out."
"The doctor said to wait a week and it was fine! It's been three weeks and you've barely touched me!"
"It's still scary. You're the one that's going through all this shit and it's my job to take care of you! How am I taking care of you if we have sex and you end up in the hospital."
"It was one time, Niall. The doctor said it would be fine as long as we weren't too rough. Plenty of people have sex while they're pregnant."
"I never meant to make you feel like I didn't love you, or I was bored with you."
"Will you please not lie to me like I'm stupid! I know I'm getting fat! None of my clothes fit, my face even looks fat." I cried, plopping down on the edge of the bed.
Niall kneeled in between my legs and pulled my hands away my face.
"I don't care if you gain 300 pounds Han, as long as you and Ryan are healthy that's all I care about.
Honestly...the other day when Freddie was here freaked me out. He wouldn't stop crying and then you finally settled him down. I just kept thinking, how am I going to take care of a baby when I can't even get this one to stop crying. It's all just been messin' with me head and I don't know, I freaked out. I've had trouble... getting in the mood, I guess with all this shit in my head."
"Why didn't you just say that?!"
"I didn't want you to think I couldn't do it. I mean I was freaking out, both of us freaking out wouldn't help."
"Babies are hard, Ni. There are going to be days were going to want to rip our hair out, but as long as we work together, we'll be fine. I can't even tell you how many days I thought about quitting when I was a nanny after high school."
"I want you to be able to count on me."
"I do. Niall, I'm freaking out just as much as you are. I get you were having... issues, but trust me when I say as soon as the baby comes, you are going to be the best daddy ever. Now, if we talk to the doctor when we go back and she's says its okay, can we please have sex?!"
It all made more sense now, it also made me feel totally stupid and irrational, but I'm just going to blame the baby on that.
Niall chuckled and moved over me so I started learning back on the bed.
"When we talk to the doctor than yes, but I think I have a way to make it up to you." He smirked, kissing me neck.
"I love you..."
"I love you too, like a ridiculous amount."
I smiled as his face came into view over mind.
"Good. Now, I believe you have some making up to do." I smirked.
I definitely was going to be less frustrated after the night was done.
