I Am In Love With My Ex [ Unedited]√

Chapter Eleven - Not giving up on us

Staring deeply at the coconut head in front of me. I had expectations that high school would be great, but at the moment it seriously sucks. It's boring and each day is unusually long and exclusively boring to me.

It's as if everything was against me having fun in high school. The class are super boring; revision, revision, and revisions. I don't understand why we keep revising. Lunchtime also boring, sometimes Drey sits with us, sometimes he sits with other students. I feel guilty lying to Drey about my relationship status, but I think it was for the best.

I tried to draw my attention back to Mrs Oladipupo; our mathematics teacher. She was teaching us revision on A.P (arithmetic progression) and G.P (geometric progression). At the moment I felt my relationship with Drey is moving at an arithmetic progression. I wish I could take back my word for not wanting him as a friend. Sin or not I observe I still care for him. I may not love him like before but I still wish to be close to him. I really miss Drey. Maybe I should talk to him.

A few minutes later it was a break before I could call Drey's name, he already sprang from the chair to God knows where. I stood up to meet Tina.

"Sussy, what's wrong these days. I guess there is something you are not telling me. It's- hmmm- it's as if you are hiding a secret. You know best friends are not supposed to hide a secret from each other". Does she really knows? Should I tell her about my relationship with Drey or not. I guess I shouldn't tell her that's the best. I mean she might feel like I am hurting and go super best friend mood. Helping best friend and stuff like that.

"It's really nothing Tina. I'm just trying to study hard regarding our mock exam". I tried to say it in a cheerful way, with a small smile on my lips.

"Okay, if you say so. Let's go find something to eat." She was already drawing me to the canteen. This was better, I would get my head off Drey for a while. After buying our meal, I was surprised to see Drey sitting with the rest of the group. At first,t I felt reluctant to sit there but at a second thought,t I can't continue to avoid Drey. It would do me no good. It's now or never.

I dragged my feet beside Tina carrying my lunch with me. Where was my fake boyfriend when I needed him. My face was glued to my plate careful not to make eye contact withDreyss. I already dropped the idea of speaking with him. I mean am not that courageous, am a coward.

I was chewing my rice slowly when I suddenly felt a hand on me, immediately I draw my attention to the hand. I was glad when I saw Martins. Finally, acting like a boyfriend.

"I hope am not too late for the act". he whispered in my ears, making me giggle.

"So it's true you are dating this junior" Lawrence said, eyeing Martin as if he was an alien. I was rendered speechless. I wanted to say something but I don't want to sound offensive to Martin or Drey.

"It's not a new news Law, I guess you really are outdated. You only know about old stuff." Amaka replied sticking her tongue out at Lawrence.

" I just want to hear it from the horse mouth. I mean we are friends she shouldn't hide anything from us" Lawrence was looking at me as he said that.

"That's true, and what's so wrong about dating a junior ?" Martins' eyes were popped out maybe awaiting their reply.

At that moment everyone was mute at the table, suddenly focusing on their meals well apart from Drey who was looking at Martins with a deadly glare. I was secretly looking at Drey, he doesn't look his usual self. Not that he was not handsome, he was handsome although it looks like he hasn't been taking care of himself. What has he be doing these days?

"So sweetie, how about a date after closing" Martin said loudly holding my hands. I was surprised and I know the rest of the group were looking at me. "Pleaseee." He continued. Well, what would I say. I can't disappoint him, well he is just acting for me. I guess this better it would make Drey think it's real.

"Done. I will be expecting you, dear". I fake a smile on my lips, trying to look happy. Why is it so difficult to fake a date, it's not as if people don't do it in this generation of ours. I mean nothing is new under the sun, I guess there is a saying that goes like that right?

Suddenly, I felt someone pulling up on my sit. I look up to see Drey's hand on mine holding me tight. "Adrian let me go. What are you doing". I really am eyeing him suspiciously.

"I want to talk to you in private. Is that wrong" he said between teeth as if he was trying to suppress his anger.

I stood up immediately to follow him. I won't want to create a scene in the school cafeteria and be the topic of the week at school. No, I surely don't want that.

"What are you trying to do" he barked still holding my hands. Some students look at our direction. I feel really embarrassed, why his he doing this. Does he not know about letting somethings go bye.

"Doing what ?" I try to voice out but my voice only came out in a whisper. I know am still feeling guilty about the fake boyfriend stuff. It's not my fault, is it?. He was the one who destroyed our relationship at first. It was all his fault. His and not mine.

"I know you are acting all this relationship stuff. I know you Sussy, you can't act in front of me". Does he really know ? I tried to act not affected by putting one feet in front and crossed my arms below my breast.

"Are you that sad that I moved on and am happy without you". I was practically annoyed with myself. Way to go Sussy, you want to get closer to him and what are you doing right now. Pushing him away from you.

" Sussy," his voice soften has he called my name, as if he wasn't just angry at me. "I already apologise. What do you want me to do so you can forgive me".

"Maybe staying away from me will help". I try to say that in a calm voice, so I wouldn't be poking him on his chest. I was expecting him to agree or something like that, he believes he can do anything right. I will see how that makes he feels. He was quiet, finally learning his position in my life.

I walked away but was stopped when I heard him shout." I AM NOT GIVING UP WITHOUT A FIGHT! I WILL SURELY FIGHT FOR US!". I didn't look back just kept on walking. I swear this is the longest lunch break I had in my entire 17 years of existing.

Author Note.

So sorry it took forever to update. What can I say writer's block? I have different ideas but I kept thinking it's not good enough, and thanks to my demanding job. I have really been busy.

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