Text Diary #3
You : shawn i miss you so much it's slowly killing me. i feel like a shadow, nobody cares about me. I'm there but ignored.
now i understand how you feel. but that's now not yesterday or the other day when you told me you liked me.
now. you like someone and I'm sure that someone isn't me.
text me when you're up, please don't forget me.
no answer
Text Diary #4
Shawn:hey um my schedule is jam packed at the moment sorry agaim and agaim for not reasing your message i know it's been 2 days so sorry, i have a kinda bad and good news.
they decided to extend my time here to 3 months, i hope you're fine with it, i gtg sleep
You:I'm fine, text me if you're really on so we can facetime instead of late replies.
Shawn: yeah
Your Pov
nobody cares. yes no body not even my own parents, the people that i thought cares for me, they don't. they used me, I'm so stupid.
all of these thoughts clouding my brain. I've never tried aelf harming before and why is that, it's because of shawn. he went through depressing years and he self harmed. i was the one who told him to stop but here i am, tiny pieces of sharp blades on my palm, one little mistake and blood would be everywhere.
i once told him that self harming was only going to make you even depressed, he told me that it helped him cure. for him hurting is curing.
for me, hurting is hurting. pain is pain. you don't fight hurt with pain.
Notes :
Guys Nat made a trailer for this story arghhhh im so happy. ilysm nat
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