Standing By

Me

'I need you'

Is that something you want me to say. Would that make my anger and sobbing every night stop.

All of it.

Because I can't continue with this pain anymore. I don't want to be broken.

I've pleaded for help.

But you just don't care.

So if you think that I'm crazy or lost and I can't seem to find myself and be sane.

Well you're right

I can't deal with all of my life anymore, I didn't want any of it. But somehow you just have the best words to say.

You made me feel like I was the only one.

But how could I believe you, you're just a liar. Just like I am to myself.

I believe that everything is fine and in it's place but it's not.

It's nowhere to being that. 

I told you that and the smile that you had, just   fell with the words that came out of my mouth.

The real you came out and you just cried and cried and screamed. So loud that I heard ringing in my ears.

The smile on my face  had left months ago, and you soon began to realize what my face actually looked like because you never payed attention to me.

And I'm just done.

Pretending that nothing is wrong. I want to be happy again and be myself and not be afraid.

I just want to be me.