night changes

twenty-six

Flashback

"Baby I'm sorry, please stay!" Devin tried as I began to gather my things from his apartment. I had meant to pick these things up when he was absent but it hadn't worked out that way. I thought he had left for work but it turned out he skipped out on it.

"Stop making this harder then it has to be." I told him doing what I could to ignore the man I he put up with for so long. I knew he was bad for me but I was more afraid to be alone then anything else.

"How many times do I have to apologize?" I could hear the frustration build in his tone as I tried to keep my gaze away from him and more on my bag that I was packing.

"Apologizing isn't enough anymore Devin. Do you understand what you did?! You laid hands on MY baby! That's not something you can just apologize for!" I was getting heated from just thinking about what he did to my tiny, fragile baby. I could only feel those bad and angered feeling bubble up just thinking about the ordeal.

"Don't get huffy with me!" Devin started in and I could sense a fight sparking. "I'm telling you I'm sorry and you won't accept my apology!"

"That's not something you can just apologize for Devin! You hurt an innocent baby! My baby most importantly! It's over between us! Whatever we had in the first place is over now!" I rose my voice getting a little passionate about what was being discussed. I was getting more and more heated the longer Devin tried to make me stay.

"You can't just leave! I won't let you!" I could see a vein appear in Devin's neck that let me know his temper was raging. I wasn't afraid of him however, this was all so routine for me now. Nothing he did scared me. He could kick, scream, hit, punch, throw things, but none of it scared or surprised me anymore.

"I am leaving and I would love to see you try to get me to stay. I'm done with you Devin, get that through that thick skull of yours." I slung my backpack over my shoulder and began to adjust the straps to my shoulders. It was heavier then I thought since it was packed with all of Asher's clothing as well as my own.

"Say that again and I'll-"

"You'll what Devin?" I folded my arms and shook my head at him showing him I was no longer afraid of his temper. "You'll hit me or push me to the ground? Go ahead! You're a broken record!"

"Don't be smart with me!" Devin invaded my personal space by getting into my face, his hot breath fanning over my face.

"I can do what I want Devin! I'm not afraid of you anymore! You are a predictable asshole! You always have been and I'm only now realizing how much time I have wasted with you and that its my fault. I should have come to this realization sooner but I guess I have to learn things the hard way." I shook my head moving away from Devin and towards the door where I would exit out of, never coming back.

Force grabbing my wrist I was yanked backwards until I lost my balance and fell onto the wooden floors. Falling and beginning to get back up I saw Devin's face ignite with anger from me standing up for myself. He hated it when I fought back with him but I didn't see how cowering back in fear solved anything, it gave him the control and power over me.

Standing up I felt him push me until I hit up against the wall. Taking both my hands I pushed against his chest and saw him take a few steps back. Keeping myself alert I saw him come at me with a fist that connected to my right eye, immediately my hand covered the wounded area. Groaning out in pain I looked at him and kneed him in his stomach hearing him cough out as I did so.

I tried to go in for a punch but he caught it and pushed me into the coffee table. Taking my wrist and pulling me up to my feet I felt his body up against mine before a tongue pushed its was through my mouth. His hands cradling my face harshly I gasped out for hair while he forced his tongue down my throat doing what he could to violate me.