night changes

twenty-four

Flashback

"What in the hell is going on?!" I yelled upon entering Devin's apartment. Asher was screaming in the back bedroom while Devin sat on the couch ignoring the crying completely.

"Your damn baby won't shut up, that's what's going on." He said simply as my hands balled into fists with rage. I was furious yet again with Devin since he couldn't handle a simple task. I left for maybe 25 minutes to get more formula for Asher and yet I get back and the baby is screaming bloody murder.

"And you couldn't get off your ass and help out? Damn it Devin!" I swore going into the back room to see the baby laid in his crib with little bruises located on his arm and cheek. Putting my hand over my mouth my eyes watered as I saw my little sunshine in pain. Picking him up and brining him to my chest I squeezed him close wanting to take away the pain that had been inflicted on him.

Fury running through me like energy I barged out of the bedroom and stood in front of the TV Devin was heavily concentrated on. Holding Asher's tiny body against my chest I gave Devin the death stare while the baby still cried in my arms.

"What the fuck Devin?! WHAT WERE YOU THINKING?!" I screamed out after seeing the little purple bruises that had formed on different spots of Asher's frail body.

"What the fuck are you talking about?" Devin asked me with a scowl etched on his face. What I would do to kill him right there.

"You know damn well what I'm talking about! Did you think I wouldn't notice?! You don't EVER touch my baby again! EVER GOD DAMN IT!" I yelled over Asher's crying causing Devin to stand up to his full height that towered over me.

"Don't you dare yell at me!" Devin fought back getting a fire in his eyes. His brown hair nicely gelled back while his sides were shaved into a gentleman's cut; even though Devin was anything but a gentleman. 

"Or what? You'll hit me?" I questioned still feeling the rage and anger surge through me, my temperature rising till I perspired. "Go right ahead! It's not like you haven't before!"

I despised Devin and everything about him yet I didn't have it on me to leave him. He had a hold on me that I could figure out how to break. I guess I was afraid to be alone, I told myself that at least I had him rather then no one at all. Our relationship was unhealthy and I even knew it yet I chose to do nothing about it. Whenever he shoved me or pushed me I fought back but, I never in a million years thought he would lay hands on my sweet Asher. I wasn't going to stand for that.

"Shut up!" Devin screamed taking his hand and hitting it across my face, causing me to turn my head from the impact. Whipping my head back to face him I regained my balance and looked back at him with tears in my eyes.

"You piece of shit!" I growled pushing him away from me and walking back out the door with Asher still crying in my arms. I couldn't stay with Devin any longer and even I knew that, he had become dangerous to Asher's life. Running down the fall I felt myself begin to hyperventilate just as the elevator doors closed, encasing me in the small space.

Closing my eyes I felt the flow of tears run down my face thinking about what just happened. What had my life come to? I was a fuck up with everything I did. I had no where to turn, no parents to seek safety in, not even a decent boyfriend to have a shoulder to cry on. I was all alone now and nothing else scared me more then that.

"Mads? Can I crash at your place?" I spoke on the phone as I dialed up Madison for help. She was the only person I had trust in, she was the only one who showed me any ounce of support.

"Keir? What's wrong? Are you crying?" Madison answered as I reached the outside of the apartment building. The crowds of people becoming concentrated as I made my way to Madison's apartment complex.

"I just need your help Mads, I don't know where to go. I'm all alone and I'm scared." I sobbed walking as Asher cried lowly even though I tried my best to soothe him.

"Meet me in the back of the building, I'll be waiting for you, you aren't alone. You have me." Madison responded as I wiped away a few tears even though it didn't make much of a difference. My long dark brown hair making me hot as my bangs hid away my sweaty forehead I kept on my way to Madison's.

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"Keira, you have to tell the police! That's domestic violence and child abuse!" Madison squeaked once she saw my face as well as Asher's two bruises.

"I can't Madison! I've worked too hard to hide from my parents and I can't risk that all now. If they found me and Asher... I just can't risk that." I shook my head looking down to see Asher fast asleep in my arms, his hands grasped to my grey t-shirt.

"You can't just let Devin get away with that shit! It isn't okay Keira!" Madison stressed to me. I already knew none of this was okay, but all I could do was take the high road. I couldn't risk my identity to the police, I couldn't let my parents find me after everything I have done.

"I'm not saying it isn't but I have to think about Asher and I, and if my identity gets out my parents will come for me! I can't handle all of that." I shook my head feeling the weight of stress sit on my shoulder once again.

This was all so overwhelming and I couldn't stand to deal with it any longer. Sometimes I thought about letting the weight smash me to the ground, to give up the fight to stay afloat. Sometimes it all got a little too much for me to handle and I felt like breaking under the pressure.

"Well you can't go back there. You're staying with me, I don't want you going over there ever again, do you hear me?" Madison stood her ground, taking control of the situation. It made me feel good that Madison cared about me, there weren't many that cared about me; if any.

"Why does nothing turn out well for me? Why the hell can my life never get it together? No matter how hard I try to clean up my act and do things for the better, it blows up in my face. I'm tired of this." I closed my eyes feeling the hot tears form again under my eye lids as I held Asher close, he was my only comfort even though he had no clue.

"Life had dealt you a bad hand, of happens sometimes but I promise you, everything will pay off. Things will get easier everyday, I know it's hard right now but it won't always be that way. Trust me." Madison said bring me into a hug as I held her tightly with my one arm that was free.

This was all hard work and I hoped that it would pay off like Madison said.

note// I want you all to get an insight into Keira's life just to mix things up! I feel so bad for Asher!!

QOTD: What would you do in Keira's situation with Devin?