whatever you say, jerk (SHINee Fanfic)

Chapter 13

"Do I want to know?" Jonghyun sat down on the ground next to me groaning. Sniffling I shook my head. He sighed.

"Was it that bad?" asked Jonghyun. I shrugged.

"Did he say something to hurt you?" I shook my head.

"Did he..... do something to hurt you?" he hesitated as if he was making sure he was saying the right words. I nodded slowly. I lifted my head to meet Jonghyun's piercing gaze. his gaze somewhat softened though. Maybe it's because he's never seen me like this before and it's all a big shock for him.

"Nick what did he do?"

I sat there frozen. What should I do? if I tell him, surely he'll go and seek revenge by murder or something. But who else could I tell? Can I trust Jonghyun? he's my closest friend after all...

"He kissed me." the words seem alien on my lips as they passed. Saying it out loud... made it sound so much more real than it felt.

"He what?"

"He kissed me!" I snapped. Instantly I regretted it.. "I'm sorry..." More crying. I hid my face in my hands not wanting to see him. I've never dropped to being this depressed before! normally I'm such a perky and happy person! and now.. all this cause of some guy!

"Nick...." Jonghyun sighed and pulled me to his side letting me lean my head on his shoulder. I cried harder letting my emotions out.

I've never cried this hard before. Not even when those kids sliced my back open with the fishing hook. Not when my best friend Rae died in a car accident. Not when I left home.

"What? you never cried when you left home?" jonghyun suddenly asked.. I didn't say that... Was I talking out loud??

"Yes you were. You said you've never cried this hard before. Rae died?" his face fell. I nodded.

"Car accident."

"She was nice... I thought you ran away from home?"

"The same month I auditioned at SM. My grandparents were really strict wanting me to be the heir to Hachiro industries. They would make me learn every single thing off by heart. Every thing that went on. So when I told my parents I wanted to sing, they allowed it. They let me run away with the exception that I have to come home at least once every twelve months." I avoided looking at him. His arm was around my waist still holding me close.

"You know what's the worst thing?" I said between sobs.

"You getting my brand shirt wet?"

"I still love him." I stopped crying to wipe away my tears. Then I realised what he had just said and gave him a Dafuq look.

"WHat? I like this shirt! But going back... You had a pretty bad childhood didn't you..."

"I'm blessed I'm still alive. That's all that matters." I looked up sending him a smile. He sighed heavily and pulled me to my feet.

"Well how about we go on any ride you want then?"

"You mean it!? you'll go on the rides with me?!"

"Yeah... seeing as I have nothing else to do....."

"Yes! hyung! come on the rocketeer one first! I heard it goes seventy miles an hour and can really launch itself in the air!"

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"We went..... on every single ride in the park!" Jonghyun groaned collapsing on the table. I smiled gratefully at him.

"That's not true. We didn't go on the tunnel of love one or the kiddies ones."

"And we never will!? oh the horror!" He said in a sarcastic tone.