The Consequences {Jacob Black}

Chapter XXXI: Jacob's Point of View

Three damn days. She had been gone for three damn days and I hadn't heard a word from her. Her phone was shut off, but I kept leaving useless voicemails, begging her to come home. I wasn't sleeping anymore; I spent more time running around her house. I waited impatiently for any sign that she might be home. Charlie was a wreck. I think I had seen him in the same work clothes for the last couple of days. She had to come home eventually.

I wasn't sure what I felt now. She was with some leech, neglecting her family and friends. I was livid, more than a little volatile, and above all, beside myself with fear. If it wasn't for my dad, I probably wouldn't even phase back to human. As it was, I ran night and day, only phasing out to help my dad in the morning and make his dinner. I hadn't eaten since she'd left.

I knew that the pack was getting worried. After I had talked to Emily, I had been doing so much better. I was alive and healthy; the same me that I had always been. But when Annie didn't call or text the next day, I knew nothing but disappointment.

Today, I was nothing. I was a shell of a person. My wolf had more control over my brain than I did. I just wanted to hear her voice, to know that she was alive.

You should go get some rest, Jacob, Sam commanded. I just looked at him, fighting the urge to growl.

I'm not tired, I lied.

Yes; you are. I know you are. When was the last time that you slept? The guys even got you a new bed, Jake. Go sleep.

No; I'm on patrol.

You've been on patrol for the last three days! Nothing is going to happen if you sleep, Sam said quietly.

You all keep telling me that, but every time I listen, something goes wrong. Annie was almost raped because I wanted to sleep. Then I listened to her when she said that she didn't need anyone at the house with her and she almost drowned. But did I learn then? No! I ran away the second she told me, trusting that she would still be there and she went God-Knows-Where with some parasite!

Oh my God, will you shut up? a female voice asked in my head.

Leah, back down, Sam warned.

No; he's not mad that he listened to anyone, she sneered. He's mad because he had himself convinced that he loved the leech lover and now that he's figured out what everyone knew, he doesn't have the girl to tell. Leave it to Leah Clearwater to be the voice of reason. You're not mad because she left. You're worried that you're never going to see her again and never get to tell her you love her.

I will see her again! I shouted, but I wasn't so sure. Would I get to see her again?

See, if you had a pair of stones, you would've told her when you figured it out. I lunged, grabbing Leah's shoulder and flipping her underneath me. She tried to push me away while I snapped at her face. She wiggled away, darting through the trees.

I followed, ignoring Sam. Leah, back down, he screamed at her. She didn't. She spun around, leaping on top of my back and sinking her teeth into my shoulder. I shrugged her off, turning around and grabbing hold of her shoulder. Her blood flowed into my mouth as she whimpered. I released, realizing that I had bit her harder than I intended.

Feel better? she whispered through her pants. I stared at her, but she looked at Sam. He phased out and walked away from us. It was only then that Leah sat up, licking her wound. I know what you're feeling. It sucks to have them walk away, especially when you don't understand why. Sometimes, even knowing why doesn't help. But fighting back does.