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Special: Taeyang

(This chapter is for Taeyang, cuz I realized that I sorta neglected him)

At the ripe age of 28, many would have thought I would at least have went on a date. Sadly, I had. And it was one of the worst two hours of my life.

Yes, I had arrived four minutes and fifty seconds late (I actually counted) and the girl thought that my "celebrity ego" had made me into a "self centered bastard".

I expected that girl to call off the dinner but she sat down angrily and the whole night was just awkward. Later, when we left the restaurant, she told me the only reason she stayed to eat was because she had never been to such a high class diner.

Just that was enough to make me steer clear of girls for two solid years, can you believe that?

Some had asked: why not go for guys? Especially those in BigBang. I laughed in their faces and told them that I was straighter than a f***ing ruler.

I smiled at my audacity to swear at those people as I put on my apron and turned on the stove. The hot water became bubbly within a few minutes and I added some salt to it. Time for Taeyang the Michelin chef to show you his talent!

I reached for the shrimps in the bowl when my phone suddenly buzzed. Really? At this time? I huffed and turned off the stove, reaching for my phone.

It was a message from Jiyong to the group chat- "So we're meeting at that café right?"

A sense of confusion swept past me... nobody told me we were meeting today...

Then came Daesung's reply: "Yes, be there at 4"

HUH? What was this? A secret gathering that I was left out of?

I was about to type back when I realize that I had left my shrimps out in the open so I decided to resume cooking.

I dropped the shrimps into the boiling water and took out my pan. Sizzling it with oil, I poured a handful of lady fingers in and began cooking.

Finally after 15 minutes, I had plated my lunch perfectly and I casually leaned against the kitchen table as I savored the dish.

Just then, my phone started vibrating like it was electrocuted. Must be the group chat again. Since I had nothing better to do, I opened the chat and scrolled through everything.

GD: LMAO we won't be late for this kinda thing
SR: lel plz pick me up, I forgot to refill the fuel and my car won't start now
TP: Maybe we should all just take GD's car?
DS: Nahhh let them spend some couple time together...hehe
SR: Back in your face! You want to spend some time alone too, you think I don't know?
DS:Blah Blah Blah
TP: I sorta feel bad for Taeyang...Is hope he won't come online in the meantime.
GD: Don't be too caring of him, or Daesung will get jealous!

My heart uncontrollably sank as the message itself sank into my brain. So the hyungs and maknae were going on a double date...

I heaved a sigh and powered off my phone. Here I was, cooking lunch on a weekend by myself, and my friends were all enjoying each other's company at some fancy café.

Just why? Why could they go out and leave me alone? I was extremely disappointed and heartbroken as I finished the remaining lunch in bitterness.

I threw the plate into the sink and stomped back into my room. They just ruined my weekend, bloody hell great!

With nothing much to do, I turned on my computer and opened Internet Explorer. The page unexpectedly directed me to a dating website.

Was it fate? I asked myself. Although my instincts told me not to bother about dating, I could not bear to be the only one single.

Resisting the little voice in my head, I clicked into 'Look For A Date'. Pictures of girls with big eyes, pretty lips and all shapes and sizes popped up onto my screen. True, they were indeed very attractive but I did not feel confident enough to enter a relationship.

I felt do frustrated that I was about to throw my mouse across my room. God damn it! Why was I left out?

Wondering what the hyungs were doing now, I grabbed my phone angrily and pressed the button hardly. The outpour of messages soon flooded my home screen.

GD: Are you guys there yet? Tabi? D-lite?
TP: He's upset
SR: OH NO. BOYFRIEND CRISIS.
GD: What happened?
TP: I refused to wear the couple shirt he secretly bought.
GD: T.O.P honestly I don't get why you hate short sleeves.
SR: Yeah it's not that bad
TP: You guys enjoy the afternoon alone, Daesung and I have a hot mess to clean up
GD:Alright, good luck oppa

My heart seemed to shine at that message. Yes, Daesung and TOP couple fighting was not something to be happy about, but through this, I realized that there were many bad things in a relationship.

I guess God didn't find me a soul mate because he knew I wouldn't be able to stand all the fights. Maybe I could survive through their double dates without feeling sad at all.

Maybe being single was not something to be sad about.