forelsket

before we were

i had almost forgotten
how to feel loved,
i had almost convinced myself
i did not deserve it.
maybe i don't
but you grab my hand slowly,
pretending we are alone
and stare at my eyes
with a quite smile.
you tell me you love me,
but i know you aren't
in love.
but for now this is good enough
and maybe you're making me
feel good enough too.
maybe my acne on my face
isn't so bad
and maybe the bags under my eyes
aren't hard to look at.
maybe im beautiful
like you tell me I am.
i can't help but love it
when you call me over,
wanting me to crawl into your arms
and forget for a little while.
i know you aren't mine,
i don't think I want you to be.
not yet.
but you are here
because you are hoping for something more.