forelsket

you and her

i think this time

you may have finally ruined me,

i cannot feel my heart

as it is lost within the

darkness i cant escape from.

what are you doing to me?

i want to scream,

tear at your skin

and make you bleed

the way you have done to my brain.

i cannot look at myself,

i am a decaying flower

found alone within

a haunted forest.

nobody wants me.

are these truths

you claim to be saying,

just poisonous lies

dripping from you

festered mind?

i am in love with you.

and i cannot let you go

no matter how much i need to

and no matter how much

everybody is telling me to.

you are the sickness that i can't

live without,

you keep my withering rib cage

from falling down

and suffocating me.

your face is imprinted inside my mind

and it is the last thing i see

before i fall into

a nightmare sleep

of images of

you and her.

please,

stop.

i do not know

how much of me will be left

when this is all over.