Clear Skies ♕Stormpilot AU♕

[14]

[Finn]

I love him.

I love Poe.

I love Poe Dameron.

Those three phrases repeated in my mind, getting louder and louder. Faster, slower. The point is I couldn't stop thinking about him. I wished I had him back. Just so I could tell him. Now he'd probably never know.

I love him.

I had never loved anyone else, except for Coy. Not in this way. I loved Coy like a brother, but I'd never loved anyone like this. It's not like I could tell him. Poe probably doesn't feel the same. Sure he might like me, but after all those times where I would reject him, even though his only intention is to please me. I'm sure when he asked why I wouldn't have sex with him that was his highest peak.

Ugh!

Why couldn't I just give him what he wanted! Why did I have to be such a virgin?! It would've been over quickly! And now he probably hates me. For leaving him without so much as a wave goodbye. It doesn't matter if I was running from The First Order. He's Poe Dameron. He probably would've faced them head on. He wasn't a coward.

"Finn!"

I could still hear his voice.

"Finn!"

Wait. That wasn't in my head. I looked up and saw Poe and Rey running towards me. I stood up and I felt a grin creeping across my face. I took a step forward, but almost immediately the lady on the speaker spoke.

"Plane #27 to New York is now boarding. Plane #27 to New York is now boarding."

By this time Poe had reached me and had enveloped me in loving embrace. I let out a breath I didn't even know I was holding and sunk down into his hug. Poe pulled back and kissed me softly.

"Finn-"

"Poe I don't have much time." I told him, looking back at the desk that was checking people in.

"No baby, you're not going on that plane. We're gonna find a way out of here so that we can leave together."

I stared behind him at Rey, but she just smiled and nodded.

"Finn...I...I love you. I don't want to lose you. We've come too far just separate now." He said, his beautiful brown eyes staring into my dull muddy ones.

His eyes.

I remember that was the first thing I liked about him. I was so attracted to his eyes. I never wanted to stop staring into them.

"Poe-"

"Plane #27 to New York will stop boarding in two minutes. Plane #27 to New York will stop boarding in two minutes."

I looked back at the boarding desk. The line was almost gone.

"Finn. You're not getting on that plane." Poe said.

"But T-The First Order is still here Poe. It's not safe for me to stay."

"Finn I love you. Didn't you hear me? I'm not going to let you leave when I finally have you."