Courage in the Game (Completed)

The Dead Filled End

Chanyeol (Exo)

I was at the rear of the group as we were heading back to camp. There was some plan to leave the camp empty so Suho and Keith could hook up and I didn't mind that. It was a nice, clear night and I was enjoying being out. When we neared the center of camp, everyone began to smile and laugh, not to mention suddenly stop. I caught myself just in time too or else I would have crashed into Baekhyun's back. I wormed my way through everyone to see what they were looking at. I wished I never had. I was glad Suho and Keith were sitting next to each other and were clearly together, but I felt my heart drop when I saw Lay and Xiumin. At first, I thought they were being brotherly and holding hands because they had always held hands. Nothing wrong with that. Then I say Xiumin kiss Lay, and Lay kissed him back. I couldn't take it anymore after I saw that. I turned around, walked back through the crowd, and back the way we had come.

I could only wonder what had happened to make them that way. I didn't completely understand why it felt like my heart was breaking either. But once I was well on the trail, I just began to run. I felt that maybe a run would push everything out of my mind. I wasn't sure it would work, but it was worth a shot. I don't know how long I ran or how fast I was going. I fell a few times but got back up. When I fell the last time, I couldn't bring myself to get up. My knee was bloodied, but I didn't care. I sat at the base of a tree and curled into a ball. That started the never-ending flow of tears. I must have been crying for about five minutes when I felt arms wrap around me and a hand running through my hair.

"Shh. It's ok," a soft voice cooed.

My head snapped up. It was none other than Lucy that had found me. "WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU SAYING? IT'S NOT OKAY. NOT THE LEAST BIT OKAY!"

She used her shirt sleeve to wipe away my tears. "And why do you feel that way?"

"Xiumin....and...Lay...they.." I muttered.

"Ah that. You liked one of them?"

"Xiumin. At least I think I did."

Lucy placed her hand on my chest over my heart. "So it hurts here?"

I looked at her. "Yeah, a lot."

"It'll be better soon. You just can't let it sink you," she said as she removed her hand and looked at my knee.

"How can I not let it get to me. I wasn't sure what I felt towards him but seeing him like that with Lay. It just hurts."

Lucy removed a first aid kit from her bag. "Yes, and it will hurt."

"But why does it hurt so much?"

"Well you must have liked him more than you realized," she told me as she began to treat my knee.

I wanted to tell her she didn't have to clean up my knee, but somehow I knew that wouldn't stop her. Everything I had been told about Lucy went out of the window at that moment. I had heard she could be mean and cold, but she was actually really nice and caring.

She finished bandaging my knee and looked up at me. "Something wrong? You've gone awfully silent."

"Just leave me alone," I told her. As suddenly as I had felt warm towards her, I began to feel so cold.

"Leave you alone?" She asked standing up and putting her hands on her hips.

I jumped up. "Yeah. Don't you get it? I said leave me alone. While we're at this camp, just leave me alone. Don't talk to me. I don't want to see your ugly face while I'm here."

Lucy seemed to swallow tears at that moment. She pulled her bag onto her back and turned to me. A moment later, she slapped me before walking off. I just watched her walk away. I didn't need anyone's pity over what had happened and I felt like she was pitying me. I jogged back to the room I was bunked in while ignoring the pain in my knee. Once there I fell back onto the bed. Today had been a good day that ended on such a horrible note. I fell asleep knowing tomorrow wouldn't be any better.