"Ok what is it" i questioned "This is really hard for me to tell you" my mum said quietly "Whats happened" "You have lost so many people, and then Harry left, along with your friends and family and then you met Ross and you were happy-" "Get to the point" i said through gritted teeth "Ross died, hes dead Pixie" my mum said sadly "You're lying" i said taking a step back "I'm so sorry, he died in a car accient on the way here to see you, he said he completed the science project and got you a A+" I felt tears escape my eye, this must be what Ariana was talking about, she was right, i'm a nobody, a looser "Pix" my mum said trying to pull me into a hug but i rejected her "Just... Don't" i said as i ran upstairs to my bedroom, the only place i feel safe in
I can't believe it, Ross, the only person i had left, died. I have no one. Ross, my best friend, my only friend is gone forever Harry, Zayn, Niall, Liam, Louis, Ariana, Ross. Everyone is gone
"Ok ok what do i do? what am i doing?" i sobbed as i brushed my hand through my hair I cried and cried until my head hurt. "I need Harry, i need him here" i cried and cried
I ran into my bathroom and without thinking, i grabbed a razor, now that Ross was gone, i thought that my only escape from everything and everyone was to physicly hurt myself and so i did
-10 minutes later-
I was just lying here, in my bed, thinking of everything that has gone wrong in my life. I got up and grabbed my phone
"Harry. Ross died, hes dead, I have no one. Everyone and everything that has meant something to me has left. Including you. When you left it was like a dagger in my chest that repeatingly stabsme everytime i think of you, or a sad song comes on. Ross died on his was to my house, a car crash. He was driving to tell me he finished the science project and got us both a A+. I have been ditching school for the last 3 weeks. Ever since you left. It's my fault that Ross died, Its my fault that my brother died, its my fault that my dad hates me, its my fault that Ariana hates me, its my fault that you left, Everything is my fault. I cut myself today, thats the only pain thats worse than what i feel, well its clos to that pain any way. I thought i could get over you, that i could handle you being gone, but i can't, and i don't want to, if that makes me weak then fine i'm weak. I wont be sending you any voice mails or texts anymore, So i guess this is goodbye, i love you so much."
