dear future self ; s.m

six

"Shawn I-" Aaliyah barges into Shawn's room causing him to jump from the bed. His warmth leaves me and I suddenly feel cold.

Thanks Aaliyah.

Once she realizes that we were about to kiss, she awkwardly walks out of the room.

Leaving the door open, again.

I look up at Shawn who has is hand ruffled in his deep brown hair.

"Um, I-I have to finish packing" he says awkwardly. "Oh, okay, I probably need to get back anyways.." my voice trails off as I stand up.

I turn and start to walk out of his room but Shawn grasps my arm and spins me around.

"Tris wait-" I cut him off and smash my lips to his, surprising not only him, but myself as well.

I've been waiting a long time for this moment and I've come to the conclusion that I have finally let my emotions get the best of me.

I think I'm in love.

I pull apart and gaze into his chocolate brown eyes. "Tris- that- I" he stutters for his words. I hold back a laugh.

"Goodbye, Mendes" I smirk, turn my heels and leave him dumbfounded in his room.

***

After hours of debating which clothes to bring and which ones to leave here, I finally finish packing.

I can't believe I'm actually going on tour, with Shawn, and I really can't believe that people enjoy hearing me sing even though they've only heard one six second video.

Maybe I should post a video on my own account, considering, my follower count has grown a lot.

I open up the vine app and search for the camera. When it opens I hesitate for a moment. Is this really worth it? What I I'm making a complete mistake?

I grab my guitar and press record without a moment more to talk myself out of it.

I strum 'Like That' by Jack and Jack because I am 99% sure that they are going on MAGCON as well, and not to mention, they have amazing voices.

After the video finishes I caption it;
"I can't believe I'm actually going on tour! Thanks for all of your support, and a special thanks to my bestfriend, @ShawnMendes for being my #1 supporter. Love you lots❤️"

Wen it uploads I immediately get hindered of comments, likes and revines.

I scroll and reply to some of the comments. Shockingly, they're all extremely nice and excited to meet me. As I'm scrolling I see that Shawn has commented, it's reads, "Love you more❤️😉"

I smile at my phone. How'd I get so lucky? Grabbing my journal I bring to write;

Dear Future Self,
Tomorrow I'm going on tour, and I'm freaking out because it's all boys, and I only know Shawn. I wish you could come and tell me if I'm gonna be okay. Hopefully you don't like one of them. I want Shawn and I intend on staying with him. Of course if that's what you chose. Anyway, wish me luck because I'm about to make the future me! (You) I'm sorry, hopefully we've also gotten over our awkwardness.

I laugh at myself and put my journal in my bag for tomorrow. Then I run downstairs to thank my mom.

"Mom thank you so much!! I love you and will miss you and I promise I will stay safe." I say while giving her a hug.