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|| Chapter 11 ||

"What's wrong?" He asked sitting me down outside of school on a broken wooden fence.

"It's just, do you ever feel like you just want to crawl in a hole and never come out? Like someone's hand is pushing you back down? Like your not good enough...." I paused and looked at the fiery colored leaves fall to the ground. Letting all their troubles go, instantly.

"Rarely," he glimpse back at school building then back in front of us. All what was there was some gates and the road. Cars whooshing past, managing to keep control.

"Lucky you," I joked.

"Why do you think about yourself like this? You are amazing, don't you realize?" She looked me in the eyes and smiled. My stomach flipped and I looked down. That doesn't help...

We walked back into school, I cleaned up my tears and we walked around school for a while, not wanting to walk into Olivia or anyone in that class room.

It was finally lunch and I had ran to the the cafeteria. I grabbed a sandwich and juice carton. I waited for Ivy to come but she didn't. Alone...

I felt a hand smash against the table so I looked up, shocked to see her. Olivia.

Shut up and don't say anything....

"Hi! How are you, well I don't give a damn so don't answer that. Listen leora, stay away from Isaac or I'll get my Daddy to fire yours. Understood?" She smiled , flicked her hair and walked off.

My dads only job. The only thing that keeps a roof over our head. Her dads Ryan? That makes a change, I joked. Ryan is demanding and selfish just like his daughter. I do feel a tiny bit sorry for Olivia though. She had no mother to grow up with, hers pasted away. It's better than your mother running away and never coming back, after all.

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I couldn't stop thinking about it, not seeing Isaac. I like him. No, I don't. Well I might. I felt sick by the time I get home. All the emotions driving around the bend. Dads not home for another 4 days, with Ryan. I felt ill just thinking about it. My dad worked his backside off to impress Ryan. And now I am going to ruin it. Only if I don't talk to Isaac ,I won't.

Me-Isaac, I am really sorry, but please don't talk to me anymore. You would do us both a favor.

I sent the text and regretted every wording I put into it. I wanted to talk to him. I wanted to see him. I liked him.

A bit!

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I woke up like a mess. I quickly got dressed and put my make up on. I started to walk to school. My thoughts kept leading back to him. I need to forget him, Leora. He was never going to like you and your not good enough For him. I looked down and played with my hair. It will be better when school has finished and I have to go to collage.

I ran to the library and scanned for a good book. I came early today, 20 minutes early. I sat on a chair and kept my head down, reading word after word.
I conked down the stairs, flying down everyone of them. Forgetting my future. Forgetting my present. Forgetting me.
I heard footsteps behind me, then suddenly stopping. I turn round and see Isaac standing there is mouth open, liked he'd seen a ghost. His eyes dropped down at me.
"What the hell, Leora?! You can't just text someone like that when they haven't done anything," he looks upset. He takes a seat next to me his knees facing me. "What did I do?" He put his head in his hands that where resting on his knees.

"Nothing, but something happened and I," I thought of an excuse ," wasn't aloud to talk to anyone but Ivy, my dad gets anxious about who I am talking to," I say standing up collecting my book. Wow, great save.

"But you can trust me," he stood up with me. I walked away not wanting to being walked in on by Olivia.

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The teachers went on but their words flew out my other ear, Like a car stuck behind a red light. My mind just wouldn't process it.

But I promised Isaac, to go trick or treating with his 2 cousins. It was a week away but I couldn't not just go. I thought about this situation. But every thought made it a more difficult decision to make.

Should I just tell him? Make it easier. Talk to Olivia? Talk to Ivy? Dad?

What could I do to make things right again?

Ohh!! It's only chapter 11 and wow, the drama it's caused.
What will Leora do to make things right?
  Can she even make things right?
Read what happens sneak it the next chapter!
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