Love? Nah, in this world, love is only for the weak, and I won't let anyone to step on me.
But ... He's different, not because he's a good lover, in bed, yeah in bed, but i started loving him without the assurance of him to love me back.
He doesn't even care about me, so I act the same way.
He said it was just lust, and I let him used me for lust.
I know that he loves someone and, it stabs me so hard,but I still pretend that I don't.
I'll do everything just to be with him, even if hurting is my price.
I'm a good pretender,right? What if I act the opposite way? And yes, I lied, a lie that changed everything.
I lied, and everything got worst, now he's mad, he's angry at me. He hates me,really really hates me.
So i left and every lie I made became the truth.
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Love? What a word, i am inlove with someone but i can't be with her, and fuck dude, I got my "needs", and I met this girl, who fills my emptiness on those wordly things, a FUBU, the friends-with-benefits kind of situation.
She only want me for pleasure so i gave her what she wanted.
I don't even love her, 'cause I am loving someone else,and she knows it.
I don't even know if what I am to her, 'cause she doesn't even care about me, about us, and yeah, there was never an "us".
But, i can't hold this feeling anymore. I can't bare this urge to love her, but the situation we made just made us worst.
And then she lied.
And its fvcking hard for me to know what, how, and why?
I got mad at her because she lied,and it hurts like hell.
Then, she left, she left without giving the chance for me to tell what I really feel...
