Why not? Destiel & Sam/Jess (high school AU)

Wish it was different

Cas

It's been a week, and we're still no where close to finding them. The worst part is we have no idea what's going on with then, or where they are, or, dare I say, even still alive. The good news, I really feel like me and Dean have gotten closer. My heart flutters by just thinking about him.

"What?" Dean comes up and asks me. Right now I'm just sitting in a field on a big rock I found watching the sunset. I look at him confused by what he means. He must've seen how confused I was. "Why are you smiling?" He asks. I didn't even realize I was smiling. I turn back to the sun, but I could see him looking at me from the corner of my eye.

"No reason." I say simply. He nudged my arm.

"Are you think about me?" I can't help but laugh. It's funny because I think that was meant to be a joke, but I actually was.

"Maybe, maybe not." Dean plops down next to me and sighs.

"I miss them." I nod my head, already knowing exactly who he was talking about.

"Me too." Then I decide to ask him a question I've been dying to ask. "How do you do it?" I look in his emerald green eyes. He looks back into mine.

"Do what?" He asks confused.

"How can you live this life everyday? Ive only been living it for a little over a week, and I'm already sick of it. Why don't you ever just leave?" I ask curiously. He looks back at the ground.

"Well, I've definitely thought of it before. Just running away and finding someone for me and grow up to have a family. I get so close every time, but then I think of Sammy. Innocent, little Sammy, who keeps me going. I can't leave him alone with my dad. He would never have even a slight chance of getting a normal life. There's more for him out there, I just know it." It makes me smile how much his mood changes when he's talking about his brother.

"There's more out there for you to, Dean." He chuckles.

"Like what?"

"Well," I was going to say something, but stopped myself. It was much to embarrassing to say.

"Well what?" I shake my head.

"Nevermind, It doesn't matter." He pushes me a little bit.

"Come on, you have to tell me now!" I keep my mouth shut, and he pushes me off the rock.

"Hey!" I yell. He laughs, then gets up and starts getting closer. I don't know what he'll do to get me to tell him, so I get up and start running. I here him running after me. Sadly, his years of being a hunter have made him more faster at running, and he easily caught up to me. He tackled me, causing us both to fall to the ground. I laugh hard with him. Then we both look up at each other, and both our smiles drop a little.

"Okay, well I was going to say, it's stupid, don't laugh."

"Cas! Come on, I won't laugh. Just spit it out!" I feel my cheeks heating up.

"Well, if this goes somewhere, maybe we could have a life together." His smile immediately goes away. My heart starts pumping. Oh crap, I probably just freaked him out so bad. He probably thinks I'm physco now and is going to breakup with me.

"Are you serious?" I don't answer. I don't know what to say. "Cas, were just teenagers. Can we not talk about marriage?" He says annoyed. Why is he acting like this.