I feel like a cold water has been poured on me! I look at O-ne. Her face is fainting.
"Aneko?"Cris asks her.
"Ah..ye..yes?"Her voice is soft.
"Is it okay that I'l court your sister?"
"Why are you asking me that?"
Cris looks surprise.
I answer for her.
"O-ne,I told him you don't want me yet to have a boyfriend."
She pauses."So he's--he's the one courting you?"
"O-ne.."
'I am—"Cris interrupts.
"Cris!I..I already told you.. to..to stop courting me!"My voice starts to falter.
I can't stand One's reaction right now.
"Hey what's going on?"Cris is puzzled.
"Cris, I told you you're just a big brother to me.No more.."
"But I thought it's just Aneko who—"
"Don't be that rude Mei. Give him the chance."O-ne intrudes in.
"O-ne.."
"Allright! Your O-ne has now permitted me to court you formally,and I don't care if you keep on rejecting me. I can wait."
STOP IT CRIS...
"Now that I've permitted you, can we start our dinner?"
I WANNA GET OUT FROM THIS PLACE RIGHT NOW IF I JUST HAVE THE POWER TO DO SO.
I look at Cris, and he's smiling as if there's no tomorrow.
I WILL KILL YOU CRIS!
-Aneko-
Phone is ringing. It's Mei. I don't have plan to answer it.
I don't know what I'm feeling right now. It seems like that my heart is going to break.
There is a mental tornado in there, which no-one can see nor comprehend. I feel like it may"shut down" for weeks, even for months. At this point, all memories connected to Mei has just lost and seems like becoming bitter.
The first time I had my heartbreak felt like it was an insatiable fire that burnt all the oxygen in my body leaving me listless and empty. But it became like a thin layer of ice, cooling my insides, a gentle reminder of the pain that came before and a warning not to stoke that fire again. I can't see myself putting my heart out there again, I don't think it can survive another inferno.
But Cris changed it. My petrified heart has melted, and it feels like I'm ready to love again. That I even heed that attention to Louie, for I know I'm not his type.
Yeah.
That's the bitter reality.
I'M NOT HIS TYPE.
I'm just a friend material to him. No more, no less.
BUT OF ALL, WHY HER? WHY MY SISTER FIGURE?
She knows that I like Cris. I already love him. Why didn't she even tell me? It's like she's going to keep it from me forever.
I cry in pain.I just can't help myself from sobbing.
That dying feeling inside my chest, that tormenting events that are freshly reminiscing in my mind, the time she was with Cris when I was calling him, the day I always see them laughing together, the day he has saved her and carried her after that incident..
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Amidst the Winter (The Alpha and Omega)
Teen Fiction"Nothing or no one will break us?"Aneko says to her younger sister figure,that's me. "Yeah O-ne."I answer. O-ne is from the Japanese word Onessan,meaning,older sister. But there is that hesitation with in me. The man she has loved has been courting...
