Human

Asha

I almost kissed him. I wanted to but I can't. I can't make connections and then lose him like my family.

But you want him really.

Yes! I mean no. I mean.... I don't know. He's nice, his eyes and hair and the way he smiles. Asha! What are you thinking! I've got my head buried in the crook of his neck, breathing in his scent, its sweet and makes me feel safe, but that doesn't mean I should kiss him, does it? What if he was only going to kiss me because we were both all emotional, hormones do that to you right? He probably doesn't like me. I was horrible to him when we met.

But who saved his life?

I did. But he can't feel like he owes me and that's why he would kiss me. That's not how love works! I guess love is something I'm yet to experience. But what if I already have, and Ray is that one?

Just kiss him already!

I can't! I made it awkward by moving, I can't just go again. The moments gone. I missed it because I'm scared! It's all very new to me considering I never...really...had a boyfriend.

Then how will you know?

I guess I will just know okay! "Please just shut up!"

Ray flinches and I realise I thought out loud, "I didn't say anything Asha." He leans back and holds me by my shoulders looking at me with worry.

I stutter "You didn't? I must be mentally deteriorating from all this lack of oxygen" I laugh but it comes out hysterical and fake. His eyes narrow with concern. "I'm fine Ray! Never been better."

"That was the biggest lie I've ever heard in my life!" He retorts "That's like me saying I smell like a daisy."

I can't help it and I burst out laughing, wiping at my eyes ad tears run down my face. How can one person completely mess with your heart and head without seeming to be trying?

That's because of a feeling you call lo-

No. Its not. I'm not falling for him. I stop laughing and Ray is staring at me and I feel the heat creep to my cheeks. I hate him for this.

Do you?

Never mind. I smile and move myself to stand up, but before I know it Ray is on his feet and helping me up, his biceps flexing. My eyes are drawn to them and I curse in disgust at myself. Ray just chuckles and dusts himself off, stepping away from me and I sway, a dizzying sensation swarming behind my eyes.

"Woah! Literally fell for me there Eh?" Ray sounds nervous but he's trying to lighten the mood.

"Haha, just a bit shaky on my feet." I grasp at his T-shirt practically struggling to stay upright. Everything is spinning. My sight is clouded and my mouth tastes metallic, then I feel a punch to my stomach and I retch, returning half the bog to its rightful place. While I empty my stomach onto the marsh, his hands never leave me, one holds my hair at the nape of my neck whilst the other traces circles on my back. He mutters softly, and although I can't hear him through the rush of blood in my ears, it's comforting none the less.

When I've finished vomiting in the most attractive way, Ray raises his brow "what have I told you about drinking out of dirty puddles? I can't take you anywhere."

Funny. I smirk lopsidedly and shut my eyes "Sod you," I whisper "I always tell you to stop fighting the elderly but you don't listen."

"Oh, is that how it is?" He puts his hands on hips and I laugh again, shaking my head and walking away. He catches up with ease, considering I am walking like a drunkard. All the while I can feel his hand on my arm, there because he's worried I'll fall and embarrass him probably.

You embarrass yourself, never mind him!

True, there's a niggling sensation behind my temples and my right knee buckles,I end up kneeling until the dizziness fades. Ray is crouched in front of me, one hand on my shoulder.

You have another chance! Don't ruin this moment too.

Here goes nothing!

"Ray?"

"Yeah." He's looking at me with eyes that make me melt.

"Can I kiss you properly?"

"I thought you'd never ask."

I lean in.

Mwuhahahaha keeping the suspense guys. You'll have to wait for the next update....