Apocalypse Within The System [OM&M, AA, BMTH, PTV]

Seventeen

Blake's POV

I was so confused. Alan showed more emotion to me than he ever has, and then he just ran off. I was pretty sure he told me he loved me and he showed affection to me when I was at my lowest. I wasn't sure what had changed him, but I knew that I needed him.

"Hey Blake," Ben said with a sympathetic smile as he sat down beside me.

"Does everyone know now?" I asked, regarding my baby.

"Yep, heard you had a pretty nice freak out back at the hospital. I'd pay to see that one," he joked with a chuckle. "Just so you know, no bastard is ever going to hurt you. You are a part of us and your baby will be too. I may teach it a few things, like how to kill things and possibly how to hold their liquor, but everything will be alright," he explained.

I smiled and nodded. "Thanks Ben. I um, I have to do something now," I muttered as I stood up and ran upstairs. I walked down the hall until I was in front of Alan's door. I sighed and brought my fist up to the door, but I stopped myself when I heard his muffled cries.

I waited another few seconds and finally gave in, knocking on his door.

"Go away. I'm fine," he murmured.

"You sure don't sound fine," I said.

"Blake, please. I don't want you to see me like this."

"Alan, you're not the grinch. Everyone has feelings and just because you're showing yours it doesn't make you any less of a person. It kind of makes me like you even more," I admitted.

He sighed and opened his door. I smiled sympathetically at his vulnerable state.

"Ok, you saw me. Now leave," he murmured as he began closing his door.

I slid inside his room before he closed the door all the way. "I love you too," I whispered.

"You what?" He asked, wiping some tears away.

"I love you too," I repeated.

He smiled a bit. "I didn't think you heard me back there," he confessed.

I planted a soft kiss on his lips. "From what I've seen, I know you'll be there for me. You know me more than anyone here because of high school. You know what I've been through, even if you chose to ignore it back then."

"Sorry about your dad," he murmured as we both sat on his bed.

I chuckled a bit as I crossed my legs. "How do you remember?"

"I remember wanting to kiss you so badly. But I had to stick to my bad boy appearance so I played it off like I didn't care. Back then... I only bullied you because I liked you and I didn't want to admit the feelings that I had."

"You liked me even with my pizza face?" I asked with a chuckle.

"You know, your acne wasn't even that bad. And your glasses were cute."

"I wish you would've shown me this side of you sooner."

"Why?"

"Because I've never wanted to kiss you more than I do right now," I admitted.

He smirked and planted his lips on mine, pushing me back onto the pillows. He deepened the kiss as his tongue explored my mouth and my hand tangled in his hair. I could stay like this forever.

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When I opened my eyes, I was in the same spot I was in when Mike died. I groaned as I prepared myself for another nightmare. I wanted these things to be over.

"Hey Blake," Mike said as he sat down across from me. "I can see you've been enjoying Alan's company," he added with a smirk.

"You got me pregnant," I murmured. "And now you're gone."

"I'm not gone. I'm always with you, even when I'm far away. You know, all those years when we were together, your dad was watching us. When I ided, he was the first person to greet me and thank me for making you happy. He's been watching over you," Mike explained.

"Then where the fuck is he?"

"He already crossed over, Blake. He had no unfinished business."

"What's your unfinished business?"

He looked unsure. "I don't know yet. I've done everything I could possibly think of. But I love you Blake, and if it means that I can never stop talking to you, then I'm alright with that."

I smiled. "I'm alright with that too."

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I didn't wake up in tears. I woke up with Alan's arm around me as I was cuddling him tightly. His warmth was comforting.

"You didn't have any dreams?" Alan suddenly asked. I looked up and he smiled down at me, brushing some hair out of my face.

"I had one... but it was a good dream," I confessed. I was finally starting to believe that Mike would always be with me, no matter what. He was watching over me and he would make sure that nothing would go wrong.

Alan gave me a kiss. "That's good."

It was time for my first ultrasound. I was really nervous and I hoped to death that I wouldn't cry in front of Rachelle and Alan.

After getting everything prepared, I took a deep breath as Rachelle began the ultrasound.

"Oh god, that's really cold," I murmured, sucking in a breath.

"I guess you're only used to warm liquids on your stomach," Alan teased.

"Oh my god!" I exclaimed loudly as Rachelle laughed.

"There's your baby. It's pretty difficult to see right now, but so far it looks like everything is fine," Lydia explained, showing me my baby on the screen.

"Wow, it's looks like it's going to have Mike's big head," Alan pointed out. He chuckled as I looked up at him in complete disbelief. He gave me a quick kiss, smiling against my lips.

"So, are you done being a douche now?" Rachelle asked.

Alan sighed and brushed some hair off of my face. "Yeah."

Once we were home again, I made my way into the living room to find Vic to tell him the news. I stopped in my tracks when I saw Rachelle already passed out on the couch. That wasn't what surprised about. There was a tall figure standing over Rachelle.

The man looked up and smiled at me before disappearing. Holy shit, what the hell was that?

"That was Austin," Danny said, suddenly appearing beside me. "If you don't mind, I'll take it from here," he added as Rachelle woke up in a fit of tears.