Apocalypse Within The System [OM&M, AA, BMTH, PTV]

Twenty Six

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Rachelle's Point of View 

-The Next Morning.-

 I laid on my back and stared at the ceiling, I was thinking about this whole experience and everything. 

I heard a knock on my door, "Come in." I called, in walked Matt. I sat up and put my knees up to my chest. "Well hey stranger," he chuckled and sat at the edge of my bed. "Sorry for being so distant, I've just... I don't know." He laid down next to me. He rubbed my back. "Can I confess something to you," "Am I now the priest of us now?" I replied winking at him. "Go ahead buddy." 

He sat up sighing and looked at me dead in the eye. "Do you remember anything that happened after we left with Oli?" I shook my head, anxiety rushed through my veins. What had I done, or more importantly; what had he done? He rubbed his face as he sighed. "Oli is going to kill me for this but," His lips pressed against mine. All of a sudden I remembered everything. 

Flashback. 

We sat around a fire in the backyard of the cabin, giggling and passing around a bottle of rum. We had weed blunts too. For the first time since the apocalypse thing happened, I felt complete and utter happiness. I remember sitting inbetween Matt and Oli, we were all really smacked. Oli began to get all touchy feely and try to get my pants undone. Matt slapped his hand away, "She'll get... Brrrrr," I began to giggle because when you're high, you just think everything is really funny. "Let's go inside then," I purred in Matt's ear. Matt picked me up and held me bridal style as Oli kicked snow into the fire. As we walked Matt decided to throw me over on top of his shoulder and put his hand on my butt. Then Oli went behind us and began to makeout with me. I was so smacked that I just didn't care. We got to the bed were Danny and I used to sleep. "You sure you want this love," Matt purred. I nodded. Oli began to take off his belt and as I began to strip. Things from there were crazy. We basically had a threesome. I passed out when Oli began to sexually choke me. The next morning I woke up with a killer headache and a screech yelling, "Bloody Hell," 

Flashback End. 

I stared at Matt with wide eyes as he looked at me with sorrow in his eyes. "I'm so sorry." He tried. I hugged him and began to cry into his chest, "I'm the whore of the apocalypse." I sobbed. He held me tighter and began to rub my back. Danny walked in with a plate of eggs for me and quickly dropped it as he ran to me. "What happened Matt, why is she crying?" "Nightmere," he whispered. Danny pulled me away from Matt and wrapped his arms around me and I began to bawl as I was filled with such regret. "It was just a dream," Danny said after repeating sweet nothings into my ear. If only. 

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Vic,Tino, and I later that later that day went to the hospital that was nearby. Copses laid around, decay reaked and it made me almost nauseous. "I'll dig a hole for a mass grave," Tino said. "If you need help, let me know." Vic said. "Yeah, yeah." 

I smirked as Tino grabbed a shovel. I was still quite shaken up about what I remembered, the whole thing. It kept replaying in my head. I didn't want to remember. I didn't want to carry the guilt of cheating on Danny. It made me sick. He even said I was the whore of the apocalypse before we dated. It was sad that it was true. Honestly, I wanted to die because of the Riganda at this moment in time. Or get shot by the lunatic that attempted to kidnap Blake. 

"Shelle..." Vic said. I shook my head then looked at him, "What's wrong, I said your name seven times and you didn't even look at me, you just looked like you were about to cry." Vic softly, I sighed. "It's a really long story Vic..." 

"I have time, we don't need to go until 6," I looked at the clock. 12:45 . Damn, I have all the time in the world to tell him. 

I took a deep breath and looked at him. Concern covered his whole face. Tino walked in just then, "Can I shower here please? I have dead people smell," I smirked and nodded. He carried his duffle bag into the bathroom and began to shower. I think he knew he would have to burry bodies so he packed extra clothes. It was always Matt or Him. "Are you going to tell Tino as well?" Vic asked after an awkward minute and a half. "I guess, everyone is eventually going to find out as well." 

While we waited I taught him about bandaging and how to fix broken bones, in case anyone fell. I was teaching him incase I died. I told him the reason was because it would be better if we had two medical people instead of just one. He was alright with blood and he rarely drank so he would be sober and calm if he ever had to do anything hectic. I started to get lightheaded. I took a deep breath and reached in a bag I brought that had pills in it. I popped two asprins and Vic rose an eyebrow at me, I just waved it off. "Just stress, I'm fine." 

Except I wasn't. It wasn't just stress but the stress of ever. I took a deep breath and began to explain how to deliver a baby, I knew I had to tell him before either I or Blake had the baby. 

 Tino walked out as I was explaining how to cut the umbilical cord. He made a face as I rolled my eyes. Vic smiled and shook his head at Tino. "You're teaching Vic medical stuff?" "Hey think about it, who would you rather have cutting you up if you have to undergo surgery or whatever. Ben or Vic?" "Vic," "Exactly." 

They both chuckled and Vic crossed his arms, "Tell us what's wrong." "Somethings wrong?" Tino asked confused. 

I sighed as I began to explain everything. Danny calling me the 'whore of the apocalypse', why I agreed to date Danny, The skating rink, then when Oli and Matt took me to the old cabin. Tino clenched his fist at that one. As did Vic as rage covered his eyes. Then I got to Oli and I in the kitchen, then Matt this morning. 

"Fucking hell, I'm going to murder Sykes." Tino growled. 

"Calm down Tino, we should just hurt both Oli and Danny."

"What about fucking Matt?"

"He isn't fucking with her mind, He was honest with her and plus in the cabin, they were high!"

Tino sighed, he knew Vic was right about that. 

"Please don't kill anybody," 

"Why not," The both said at the same time. 

My mouth twitched I didn't know why, I didn't want Danny nor Oli to die. If you would've asked me 5 months ago if killing Danny was acceptable, I'd say :'Slay the damn man.'  For Oli, I didn't wanna loose Oli, he was my favorite person. I knew him long before I ever met Worsnop. He was nearly one of my best friends. Alan was the best, but let's face it. Oli was a close second. 

"Do you want to learn more abou--" 

"Let's go home," Tino grumbled. Tino walked past me and walked down the hallway. I looked down because I infuriated him. Vic took me in his arms and held me. I began to cry as he rubbed my back. "We'll come back tomorrow when we wake up," I nodded.

We walked out to the car and Tino was waiting smoking a ciggarete. I opened the front door as Vic to passanger. We let Tino finish the fag before we left. 

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We got to the house after a tense car ride. All I wanted right now was to have Danny cuddle with me. I looked at him and smiled but he just glared at me and stood up. He nodded at Tino and Vic noticing their existance then walked away upstairs. I looked around confused and saw Jaime give a sympathetic smile. Blake and Alan were holding hands and averted their eyes from everyone. Oli stood up and cleared his throught. Matt pulled him back down. "You caused enough damage today Ol," He said. Ben walked down and glared at Oli and popped a tab for beer. "What the fuck happened?" I finally said staring at Oli and Matt. Matt stood up and walked to me. He led me into the kitchen. Before I left I saw Oli staring at me. Tino and Vic followed, Tino glared at Matt and Matt sighed. "Oli and Danny got into another fight. It was over you and Oli slipped out what happened between all of us." "What did Danny say," I said, voice quivering. 

"He called him a liar, Then Oli told him all about what happened. Then he explained your kiss at the skating rink and in the kitchen." I backed away. I was at a loss for words. I know what I did was wrong. I knew it was my fault. I backed out pushing Vic and Tino out of the way and ran. I ran out the door and just ran. I had my shot, if a Riganda came so be it. It wouldn't kill me. I wish it would though..