Permissive

Chapter 6

(Lauren)

"Staring is rude," she mumbled as she continued to check the photos she took on her DSLR.

"Yeah," I coincided, "Staring is rude, but let me tell you young lady that I am not staring."

She stopped for a minute before she looked at me, raising an eyebrow at my direction.

"Then what are you doing?" She asks.

"Appreciating," I answered smoothly, "Appreciating the beauty of the goddess in front of me."

A shy smile slowly creep up on her face as her cheeks turned to a shade of pink. She shakes her head still smiling as she resumed to whatever she was doing.

"You're crazy," she said.

I laughed at her as I stood up from the bed, walking towards her. She was sitting infront of the study table, her laptop was open.

It's been months since we started this "relationship". After I went to her apartment that night, I felt alive again. No one, as in no one, knew about our relationship. She's still with Sam and I'm still playing baseball. The cup has already ended with my team winning the championship. She was there. With Ally, Lucy and Sam watching the game...

It hurts.

It still hurts.

Even though I have her, I know that I don't have her like Sam do. Sam can show her off to the world. Hold her hand in public. Kiss her anytime he wants. Wrap his arms around her infront of the crowd. Let the guys know that he owns Camila. It hurts to know that I couldn't do that. That all I can do is hide in this small apartment we bought. Take her to places that are secluded. Hold her hand under the table. Kiss her behind close doors.

I know that she's doing all the things in order for me to not feel jealous of her boyfriend. But what can I do? I'm just human, you know. But I slowly learned to be contented. It's better to have her this way than no way, right?

"What's up, baby?" She asked as I took a seat beside her.

"Happy monthsarry," I whispered on her ear as I rested my head on her shoulder.

"It's been months. It's our 3rd monthsarry. This has been the best months of my life, Lo."

"Really?"

"Hmm," she nodded, "It's because of you. You make me happy. I'm inlove with you."

My heart flutters everytime she says those 4 words. Butterflies erupts on my stomach and it's making me feel weird. Like, the good kind of weird. It amazes me how she can do it effortlessly. She had me wrapped around her little finger. But I'm not complaininh because I love it.

"I'm inlove with you too," I replied, placing a soft kiss on the side of her neck. A contented sigh escaped her lips as she put her camera down. She was about to wrapped her arms around me when her phone ring.

I took a deep breath before I stood up and grabbed a towel. I heard a small footsteps following me and I was about to enter the bathroom when she wrapped her arms around my waist from behind.

"Answer the call," I told her.

"It's not important," she said, kissing the back of my neck.

"We both know who it is, Camila. I know he's important to you so answer the call."

"No!" She yelled, unwrapping her amrs around me as she spun me around.

"Camila..." I began began but she cut me off.

"I won't let him ruin our monthsarry, Laur. So please stop ruining it also."

"Camila, I'm not," I tried to reason but she wasn't buying it.