Craft (Dan & Phil)

Dan

Phil rushed into Dans room and was horrified to find a sobbing Dan lying in a pool of his own vomit. Phil immediately rushed to Dan and cradled his friend in his arms as Dan cried softly into Phil's shirt. Dan was angry at himself for getting into such a mess and disgusted by the vomit he sat in and mortified by what he had done. He hated himself. He hated himself more than ever before.

"It's okay Dan," whispered Phil into Dans hobbit hair, holding him close despite the sweat on Dan's skin and the vomit that covered in. He held him despite the fact that Dan was like this because of a girl and this had nothing to do with him. He held him because despite everything, he loved Dan too much.

"Fuck you," whined Dan tearfully under his breath his voice muffled by Phil's shirt. "I hate you. Fuck you. Fuck you. Fuck you..."

Phil felt tears in his eyes but he didn't let go of Dan, only held him closer.

"I didn't need you," whimpered Dan. "I didn't need you- I was fine on my own."

Dans bitter words broke Phil's heart and each word felt like a stab in his chest but Phil didn't once let Dan slip from his arms.

Dan began to sob harder and Phil held him closer.

"I don't need you," Dan cried. "I don't need you."

Phil was crying too now. The tears escaped his eyes and ran down his cheeks. Vomit covered Dan and the bed and the floor and now Phil too and in the mess and the stench all Phil could do was cry as he held his Dan.

He finally let go of Dan after hours and cleaned up the mess as Dan snivelled silently in this duvet. Lost. So lost.

Phil carefully undressed Dan, taking off his shirt and his pants. Dan did nothing as Phil stripped him of what little dignity he had remaining. Phil's eyes came to rest of Dans almost naked body. He swallowed. He looked away. It wasn't his. He felt heart break. Phil left Dan's underwear on as he washed the rest of his clothes and redressed him in his pyjamas.

He didn't say a word as he finally closed the door on Dan. Dan didn't say a word either.

It broke him.