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" you love is poison .. It's vicious ... Will u survive ?"
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I rubbed my fingers through my hair and sighed.
Me and aug got into a argument bout a week ago and I said some hurtful things and he stormed out .. We haven't talked until now when I texted him ...
I hear a knock at my door and I got up to go answer it.
I opened the door to August.
I walked over the the couch and sat down .
August : " you knoe what pisses me off about you .. You think i can only come around on yo time .. You don't call ah niggah in a couple of weeks ? How am I supposed to know if you good or whatever ... I won't gone call you cause you remember when you said get the fuck out my face August and don't come back .. Oh ! And let's not forget when you said you hated me . I'm trynna be hea fo you an da baby... But yo ass pushing me away ! I jus- "
Nicki : " I lost the baby August . "
August : " wha ? " he said as his voice got softer .
Nicki : " I lost the baby . " I said as a tear flew down my eye .
August: " how "
Nicki : " I don't know August. "
He got up and left .
Slammed the door and made me jump .
One tear turned into multiple ..
My life is just going down ..
The thing that I thought would keep me going in the world is gone ..
mom and dad are gone ..
what do I have to live for in this word .
Cut by cut .
Killer
Murderer
Bitch
Ungrateful
Hoe
I watched as the blood drips off my arm.
I smile ..
Fighting back the tears I get light headed.
Bleed to death!
There's only one way to leave this world.
is die & that's what I wanna do.
August
I sat in the car . Crying balling my eyes out like a bitch.
I Neva really cried this much before...
It hurt so bad ta knoe my baby is not hea no mo ..
I debated whether I should pull of and go home .. Or did Nic need me in there .
I decided to go back there.
I looked at my eyes in the mirror and they were bloodshot red .
I looked around for eye drops but I did have any .. I said fuck it and got out the car and went back in the apartment complex.
I reached Nic's door and knocked .
Usally she'll cone right through the door.
I called ha phone multiple times she ain't answer.
I turn the door knob . I should have tried that the first 15 minutes.
I opened the door to see Nic & blood all around ha.
I ran ova to ha to check if she had a pulse, she had one but it was very faint .
I look at her arm and it was cut all down it ...
She.. She .. Tried to kill ha self .
I pulled out my phone and dialed 911.
they got hea in less than 10 minutes.
Watched as they put her on the rolling thingy.
I grabbed her some clothes and stuff because I know she gonna live.
I jogged down the stairs and ran to my car .
I pulled off and flew to the hospital.
I ran into the waiting room and they was just rolling her in the back .
I sit back in the chair .
I throwed my head down .
August: " maine ion do dis a lot but I need a fava .. Save ha.. You took my baby away from me .. Don't take Nic from me Please. Please. Please. Amen . "
