vicious

one hell of a night.

Nic 💗

And BLUE flew everywhere , I was overjoyed wit excitement I started crying .🤦🏽‍♀️

Chandra came over to me crying too.

Chandra: " where my fifty dollars bitch. "

We laughed .

I'm having a little boy 💗💗💗

I was excited and mad the same time the fact that jahari missed the whole gender reveal was something that I wanted him to be apart of.

" OHHH YEAHHHHH !! "

I wiped my tears to look up and see Mel , Chandra boyfriend aka baby daddy.

Mel: " congrats lul sis. "

I smiled.

Nicki: " thanks Mel. " I said as I hugged him back.

I thought to myself after all I been through.

I'm having a baby.

A little boy at that.

I was overjoyed. 😊

Even though jahari wasn't hea I'm still not letting nothing break the smile off my face. 😊

I started communicating with everyone, as they were congratulating me .

After all they thank you's and the hugs and they cake eating .. I was wore out .. and I think everyone was took..

I said all the goodbyes and closed & locked my door.

I grabbed my phone and checked it to still see no messages or missed calls for jahari .. I was getting kind of worried he ain't never did no shit like this..

I tried calling him once again & he answered.

Nicki : " he baby I been calling yo- "

?????????? : " UHHHHH OUUUU YEEAAAH DADDIE OUUU FUCKKKKK . "

Nicki:" what they fuck? Jahari you watchin porn " I said giggling.

All I hear is the bed making noises and moaning.

??????? : " uhh yesssss jahari ouuu fuckkk "

I through my phone.

Tears slid down my eyes ..

He fucking another bitch.

Really

I picked up my phone and hung up.

I slid down the wall and balled my eyes out.

Every time I feel like I'm doing good ... something comes and fucks it up.

I can't win from losing.🤦🏽‍♀️

I stood up from off the around and got all his stuff and through it out on the curb . He'll find it one way or another.

Shit ion give a fuck.

I should have knew something was up cause he acting real different 🤷🏽‍♀️

Me think my man is so called " faithful "

lol these niggas for everybody 🤣

I cried some more

Think what did I do wrong

I always get fucked over.

I wiped my tears and got in bed .

As soon as I laid down my phone started ringing.

I grabbed it and answered.

Nicki: " * sniffs * hello "

" TT ? "

Nicki : " yeah kay? "

KayKay: " mommies crying and we don't know what to do she won't talk to us can you come please."

Nicki : " yeah I'm on the way baby."

I got up and slid my slippers on and my jacket.

I grabbed my phone and my car keys and headed to Chandra's house.

I got there and the kids answered the door.

Nicki: " where she at ? "

KayKay: " her room. "

I could hear her screaming from the front door.

I made my way up them long ass steps that led to her room.

Nicki: " Chandra? "

Chandra:" OH MY GOD NOOOOOOOO! "

Nicki: " Chandra. "

She sounded like she was gasping for air.

Nicki: " you gotta calm down .. and breathe before you make yourself sick. "

I felt like someone's mother when I said that.

After she noticed she couldn't hardly breathe.. she tried calming down.

Nicki: " now tell me why the fuck you wildin"

Chandra: " he.. he..he's gone. "

She said before busting back into tears.

Nicki: " who?? "

Chandra: " Mel ! "

I heard gasps.

I looked at the door and the girls was crying.

Oh my god.

I was trying to be strong but being pregnant wasn't making it any better I was just as emotional as she was.

I pulled her into a hug and we cried together and I called the girls over and we all cried together.

This is one hell of a night.

Tbc.💗