Just the Usual High School Love

Chapter 12

I ran down the hall and into the bathroom.

I got a couple of stares but I didnt care, my heart ached for a boy who I wasnt even dating and I hadnt talked to since..I dont even know when, we never talked I always just secretly liked him. Apparently he did too, or so he says.

I stumble into a stall and I hear someone snicker, but no one could make me feel worse then he just did. I can't belive I let myself fall for him or even kiss me. i should have shoved him off and told him he was crazy but I couldnt... it was like I was under a spell that always controlled me when he looked at me with his beautiful eyes, his soft features make me melt and I swear his body- wait what am I thinking, I'm under his spell if he is with me or not and this fact drives me insane.

I I feel one single tear glide down my face and i quickly swipe it away and pull myself together. No tears, I'm not letting him get to me, I have to be strong and realize that he would never really be into me and this is all just fake and I need to  go back to the way things were.

I realize how dumb I sound, how dumb my thoughts are as they play out in my mind. We only kissed once and talked a litte. It's not like we are dating. I can't look at this like I was in some big relationship or it will make it even harder for me to stay away from him.

I feel myself wanting a pair of soft arms wrapped around me and a shoulder to lean on, but not his... I am not to  talk to him anymore.

I wipe my cheeks even though there are no tears , I straighten out my baggy clothing and walk out of the stall and out of the bathroom with my chin up and my eyes narrowed.

I walk down the hall and glare at ever click I walk past. I find Brendan and realize that it feels like forver since I have talked to him.

"Hey" he says to me but instantely looks back down at his phone in his hand. Oh yeah!, I never solved my little mystery girl thing with him.

"Hey, who are you talking too?" I instantly ask.

"Oh no one" he shoves his phone deep in his pocket and I hear his text tone go off indicating he was.

"What were you saying?" I grin at him and he just smiles but doesn't answer.

"hey you never called me back yesterday you said you wanted to tell me something but i was...a little busy.."Krista walks up to me and says, instantley looking down at her shoes with red cheeks.

" Oh yeah I almost forgot..wow that was only yesterday, feels like it was a week ago, I forgot I even called you. Well um I'll tell you later" I tell her, leaning in I say "I can't tell you here because Brendan is here." I say Brendan's name purposely loud acting like I am whispering and he hears me.

"I heard my name! I wanna know!" he begs all the way down the hall and into the classroom after we hear the bell ring.

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Class flys by and I am glad for it. The whole day basically just came and went. Nothing exciting happened and I am very grateful considering my morning.

 I don't have any classes with Chad and I never see him in the hall. The only time I see him is on the bus home and the bus in the morning, so i am kinda not very excited about the bus ride home.

I walk over to the bus with Krista and Brendan but Krista has to leave so I tell her I will explain everything after I get home and I will call her.

Brendan walks me to the bus and he can tell I am uneasy "Are you okay? You have been really quiet the whole way over here and you have been pretty distant the whole day?

Yeah I'm fine. I've just been thinking about Chad's sweet lips on mine this morning and how he asked me to the dance and you kniw how he slightly broke my heart this morning because I got my hopes up for nothing. Yeah it's no big deal.

"Yeah I'm fine" I lie "I am just really tired" Lie #2.

"Well okay just call me if you need me, he grabs my hand and gives it a squeeze and smiles , a warm smile. He waves slightly and walks away leaving just me and my bus to settle things. And Chad. And Jenna and whatever the hell her little sidekicks name is.

I slowly make my way onto the bus and give it a look over. I spot Chad and sit three rows in front of him and pull out my heaphones.

i hope he didnt notice me because I don't have it in my to even look at him right now. I really am tired, it was an excuse to get Brendan off my back but I am and I want to go home.

I start playing music and turn it up to block out all the voices around me when I feel a shift in the seat and something touching my arm. 

I look at my arm and find a much more muscly arm brushing up against mine. My eyes slowly travel the arm to find Chad's smiling face looking down at me like he is the happiest person on the planet.

Great.

I try my hardest to keep a straight face and I keep in both headphones, looking straight foward as if I hadnt seen him. He pulled out one of the ear buds and whispered in my ear "Hello" his warm breath brushing my skin, knowing there is a big smirk on his face.

I look over and he is indeed smirking. I fake the fakest smile "Hi." I say and grab my headphone and place it back in my ear.

I am glad my voice didnt crack and I am keeping good charecter because I am just dying under the influence of his beautiful smile not to smile back. But I did love my reply 'hi' short and sweet.

"You are upset." he pulls it out again and grabs my chin forcing me to look at him.

I pull out the headphones overall not stopping to turn off the music and answer "Well aren't you good at putting 2 and 2 together" I roll my eyes and his smile disapeers.

"You are upset with me." his head drops a little but his eyes stay perfectly focused on mine.

I can't keep this image of being mad anymore, the expression on his face is killing me.

"Yeah i am not very happy with you." I attempt a small smile but it is weak and meaningless.

The bus comes to a stop and I realize that we already left the school and we are at Brad's stop.

He looks up and before I realize what is going on he has me by the arm and is leading me out of the bus, and I don't try to stop him. I know I should, that I shouldnt let him suck me in but I can't help it. He has me under his spell. again.

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Like I have said i am trying to right long chapters butttttt i want to have good cliff hangers so sorry about if the chapters are short and the cliff hangers!

Also I imagine Brendan as Douglas Booth(from LOL with Miley Cyrus) and I am not really sure who I imagine Ann, Chad or Krista as yet but I will tell you soon so you can kind of know how to picture them if you want~ avarca1 <3